Hi everyone,
I’ve completed 7 of 12 treatments of Folfox. Ended up in the ER on Aug 22 for fever, low WBC, dehydration, and bunch of other stuff. They kept me in the hospital for a few days. The gastroenterologist ordered a barium enema test (results good, no stricture, no obstruction, no tumors) and shouted to the whole 5th floor: You’re ok!! But you have so much poop stuck in there!!!! We gotta flush you out!!!! (Thanks Sherlock, that’s why I’m so traumatized about bathroom issues.)
I was hoping my counts would be good enough for chemo 8 this past Monday but sadly no. I was also hoping for no delays because I don’t want to prolong this process. This little hiccup in my plan to be done by the end of October has me disappointed and just down really. The nurse just told me to rest and relax this week, which I cannot do because my emotions are getting the better of me. I keep wondering if I did something wrong or didn’t do something I was supposed to do. Damn cancer messing with my whole being. I don’t know what I’m doing and feeling so lost and confused. Thanks for listening. Best to all.