As always, I'm so thankful for the responses & support. The kindness & understanding y'all express brings me to tears. (I know what y'all are thinking: what DOESN'T bring me to tears these days, right?
) But seriously, the folks here are the best. So compassionate and understanding.
On an unrelated note, on my way home from work yesterday, I was at a red light and the vehicle in front of me started to make a right turn.I followed suit, then she stopped short, so I tapped, literally TAPPED her bumper. My little 11 year-old Civic against an SUV. When I tell you there was NO evidence on her bumper, I'm not exaggerating. My car got the worst of it. Thankfully neither of us was hurt (I didn't have my foot on the accelerator, just took it off the brake, so no speed involved.) Yet she's filing a claim with my insurance company. Sheesh. What a day. The Mr. was not happy with me when I told him what happened. (As if it was on purpose. Really dude? My car is totally driveable & I'll get the bumper replaced when the rest of my life has settled down into some state of 'normal.' Kinda have bigger fish to fry at the moment!) I'm beginning to think I expect too much from people & need to be more self-sufficient and not rely on or expect hugs & "it's okay" when the proverbial shiz hits the fan. I get tired of myself at times, so I'm sure those around me must, too!Anyway,
it was just a crappy ending to a rather crappy day.
news is that today I woke up feeling optimistic. It's a new day, and I've got some of my favorite, lovely clients on the books. Tomorrow is Tx day, and like the past 9 times, I'll crush it.
Thanks again, guys, for your words of wisdom & understanding. Y'all rock!
42 yr. old female
Rectal cancer Stage 3C T3 N1 M0 - Sept 2015
28 rounds radiation w/Xeloda - Nov - Dec 2015
2/17/16 - Surgery to remove rectal tumor, lymph nodes (2/20+), ovaries & fallopian tubes, temp. ileostomy
3/28/16 - 9/26/16 -12 rounds FOLFOX w/full oxi
Ileo reversal 10/27/16; Port removed 12/1/16
Lung mets confirmed 2/6/17
March-May 2017 - brain mets; brain rad. 5/9-5/29/17