I'm with you there, I dread infusion days. I whine to my partner the day before that I don't want to go, I don't want to do it anymore, I don't want to get poisoned, never seriously though of course I will go and I will finish all 12 cycles but I just like to have a bit of a whinge.
The cancer centre has such a cold feeling to it, even though its newly built and modern, its lacking a warmth. I also hate the smell of the chemicals, im not sure what it is, I think its what they use to clean and sterilise the tube that connects to the port oh man I will not miss that smell at all.
The worst part is having the pump attached, I just don't leave the house, the bag its contained in is so ugly and so obvious plus i'm usually too fatigued to want to move from the couch which sucks cos I want to go out and catch pokemon haha.
03/16 Dx Stage IIIC, sigmoid resection surgery,T3 N2b M0, 7/20 nodes, 4 tumor deposits, CEA 3.7, age 31
04-10/16 Folfox with delays and reductions
10/16 Post chemo CT scan shows two non specific spots (one liver, one lung)
11/16 Port removed
12/16 CEA 0.9