The past 10 years went by so fast.
Looking back I was had no idea what I was getting in to. I think it was for the best.
Because if I knew even one 10th of what I know now they would have had to sedate me in the waiting room.
I couldn’t even image the constant pain from the neuropathy, under control with methadone but without it for 7 to 10 days the pain level is back to thinking about doing something stupid.
Pooping my pants every once in a while, this is because of the shortened colon and where the tumor was along with the 5 surgeries for the Anal fistula that weakened the muscles. When I have to go I have to go.
Scanxiety and more crap than I can count.
I like to think the journey has made me a better person.
I want to thank everyone online and in real life, many times it feels like you are alone but you do need help from others.
I think the hardest thing for me is to ask for help, most times I don’t get it but I tend to keep things to myself and to try and solve them myself.
On 6/6/6 I never thought I would say this but it has been fun, scary, painful and very strange.
I am so glad I found the club and if you will have me I plan to be here for a long time.
Do something fun for yourself today because you never know what will happen tomorrow.
As Mr. Spock would say Live long and prosper
