bitchslapped wrote:Orissia wrote:His way of coping was getting closer to his co-worker. He says he was struggling to cope with my illness and she was struggling with a work crisis. Over several months, when my treatment side effects were at their worst, they started going out - to lunch, dinner, galleries, once to the theatre (all the things we used to do regularly), once to her apartment to meet up to go out - in order to forget their problems and reclaim some normalcy in their respective lives. He claims they never even kissed, though there was mutual attraction between them. He says they both knew their relationship was "futile" (his words).
How do I cope with all this when my time on earth is so precious and so short? How do I step back and put it behind me? Basically, I need to move on. I'm a Christian with Buddhist tendencies so any advice, spiritual and non-spiritual, practical and emotional would help.
Edited to add: he tells she's dating now - through friends and online dating. I also realise he could be minimising, that they may have kissed but I'll never know and time is short...
First off, I wish you the best for the trial drug & hope you think in terms of becoming stable from your dx. I know this will sting, doesn't make me happy to say it, but regardless of any physical contact your DH & this woman may or may not have had is immaterial @ this point. The fact is, your husband is a liar & a cheat during the time you & your daughter need him the most. You may define cheating as pure physical, however he is not there in the marriage emotionally; took a sabbatical @ your expense & @ the expense of his daughter.
He can't cope w/your illness; you can't cope w/his inability to cope. Quit making excuses for him. Insist he get professional counseling rather than satisfy his need for FUN that you cannot promise to fulfill & actually speak to someone who knows what they're talking about so he can be committed to his family when his family needs him to be strong. If anything he needs to do this for your daughter. Emotional immaturity is not ok for all of you right now & you cannot be policing his activities.
If this takes place, it should put your mind @ ease & if the bills/statements aren't coming through from counseling, then he's not going. Consider calling your oncologist's office to find a therapist familiar w/counseling cancer patients & their families.
Your husband has hurt you deeply & this cannot be swept under the rug or minimized. He needs help developing coping skills & gaining a greater sense of family verses "self" for the road ahead.
Best Wishes
BS
Orissia, sorry for the double quote, butt I wanted to focus on BS's advice. I feel that she has hit the nail on the head here. It really doesn't matter if your husband has had physical contact with his co-worker. He wasn't there for you or your daughter. It's sad and painful for you and doesn't bode well for the future. IMO is's cruel behavior, and you don't need that at this point. Ideally you need him to be a strong parent when you're gone. I agree with BS. He needs professional counseling.
Best Wishes, peanut