Hello to you all,
I don't post often but I do read daily and thank all of you who provide such great advice to us cancer fighters. I would like some advice on how to handle a remark a family member made to my mother while I was on vacation. I was diagnosed with stage 4 rectal cancer in 2009 at the age of 27. As many of you know it has been a very bumpy and challenging road. In fact, my cancer has returned to my right lower lung and I will have to undergo another lobectomy 8 months after my last one. Very few family members know of my recurrent disease since I do not have a very supportive family and do not feel it is my place to "share" my news with those who are not active in my life.
Well here's to my question. My aunt lost her son to a tragic car accident (killed by a senseless drunk driver) more or less around 8 years ago. While I was on vacation with my husband she was in town and my mom (her sister) met each other for lunch at my aunts daughters house. Some how the topic of my terminal illness and how long I've been "fighting" came up. One cousin ignorantly stated that we all die and she can get hit by a car tomorrow and die. Why do I say ignorant you may ask, well because yes, we will all die but with stage 4 cancer it's a constant thought. With each blood test, CT scan, flush of our ports, scars on our bodies and each meeting with our oncologist we are reminded that our car /bus will strike any second, not when we're blinded by our normal everyday life. It's right in front of us (well for me at least) all the time. We'll that's not even the remark that is making seek your advice. My aunt then tells my mom that my death would be easier on my mom since I have stage 4 cancer and we know when my time comes her grief will be less because she has time to say goodbye. WTF! To me that's like saying you will grieve less when old person dies well because they are old and old people die. I just don't understand how someone, especially my aunt who is my godmother could say this? What are your thoughts and how can I responsibly and respectful speak to my cousin and my aunt regarding there ill mannered comments?
-Melissa