Theresa was my closest cancer friend and as soon as I heard she had entered hospice care knowing her time was very short, I just hoped like hell it would be fast. Every passing hour felt like days.
Theresa and I talked about cancer and it's effects but mostly we talked about dogs (our mutual love of Australian Cattle Dogs and dog agility), minimalism and exercise.
A while back, she wondered whether to keep doing chemo and I told her that I selfishly encouraged her to do a little more if she could, because I wasn't ready to let her go. I was honest. She was an integral part of my own journey and healing. Recently, I encouraged her to go for quality over quantity. She held on so tight, trying to outlive her 14 year old Cattle Dog, Sky.
Theresa has taught me lessons about pure grit, grace and accepting the things you cannot change. A while back, she lit a candle and added this message, which I look at often "May all beings be happy, may we all feel loved.".
I love you Theresa, I'm glad you're free of this shit. I miss you terribly. I can't believe you're gone.
A candle burning on gratefulness.org: http://www.gratefulness.org/candle/403889-2/