Postby Delinda2 » Sun Feb 07, 2016 3:42 pm
Hello all, long time no see. I've been avoiding CC for several months, just going through one of those weird phases. But I found out Thursday that I have a new primary cancer, so of course I came running back to the people who understand how I feel. Scared, pissed off, hurting, angry, stunned, and yet somehow not really all that surprised. After a year Ned I started having pain about 6 weeks ago. It kept increasing so I went in & my onc ordered a CT scan. All I know so far is that it's into the belly wall already. It's only been about 10 months since my last CT, and about 8 months since my last colonoscopy. I've been going in faithfully for my blood work every 3 months & that all looked great. I go next week for a colonoscopy & my onc will meet with the surgical team on Monday. Inc said surgery and chemo for sure, possibly radiation too. I'm surprised at how much it hurts already. My onc gave me pain meds and increased the dosage after 3 days because it wasn't enough. At least that's being managed, but I get these shocking jabs anyway. We'll know more by next week so just sort of in a holding pattern at the moment. I have lot's of great family support, but those phone calls and conversations sure do suck. I'm finding it much harder to be the positive Little Mary Sunshine that I was last time. I put on my game face for hubby, son, siblings, etc. but inside I'm thinking, "Yeah, right - blah, blah, blah." I can handle the surgery, but chemo was so brutal last time that I'm very anxious. Had Nulasta shots for VERY low white count, killer fatigue, and nasty hand & foot syndrome - neuropathy for life sucks already. Well, enough whining for now. I hope my old friends here are well, and I'll have to read posts like crazy to catch up as well as to "meet" the folks who joined while I was incommunicado. Stay strong. XOXOXO, Delinda
63 yrs,wife & mom
4/14 dx colon cancer,3C,9/22 nodes
Lymphatic,venous,&perineural invasion
<1cm margin,poorly differentiated
6/14 colostomy take down
7/14 FOLFOX w/9 Nulasta shots
2/16 dx new primary of sigmoid colon
6/16 surgery-rescection on sigmoid, total hysterectomy, temp ileo, stage 4
"I AM the storm."