Rob in PA wrote:So, getting back to the point I was about to make....Is there anyone else out there who is currently NED but going through a "mini-hell" daily due to effects from years of chemo/surgeries/etc? And, if so, do you find yourself in a "gray" area between treatment and total cure where it is difficult to explain to casual friends that, while I am NED, I have the cancer gift that keeps giving painful/uncomfortable reminders every day that render me unable to function normally?
Hope all the best for everyone this year.
Fightin the fight.
Backatcha' on the good wishes buddy
DEFINITELY keep fightin' the good fight !
To answer your actual "point" ....
I may be currently NED ... based only on the resolution of the latest scan and Onc's interpretation ...
I may be in kind of a hellish state off and on with GIT and neuropathy and other issues which I now accept as normal
I am in a gray area between last treatments, current issues and upcoming scans etc.
I do not give a shit about explaining to anybody ... anything about my past, present or future "condition" ... for any reason
SO I guess I kind of limit my external conversations ( EXCEPT here with ma' homies )
and focus on keeping things internal. Maybe not the best strategy, BUTT the one which has gotten me through 64 years of life.
...and such as life IS ... my biggest struggle I guess is just trying to accept it, myself.
You are NOT alone
none of us truly are alone unless we choose to be.
I just choose to share some things and not others and folks need to take what they get.
I am the one livin' the cancer dream
and as my dear friend cptmac
once said :
" I am the one with cancer, so I am always right !!!! "
SO you are NOT alone and whatever gets you through the day (night !) IS alright ...
IT'S ALL RIGHT
Cheers and Harmony my friend