I find this whole thing the strangest phenomenon. I've had plenty of times in my life when I was nauseated and didn't eat, but this is so different. I'm usually not nauseated and cooking the food doesn't bother me, but I just have zero appetite. I understand not wanting to eat when you are queasy or food tastes bad, but it's not that with me. Since April, I just haven't been hungry and the thought of putting food in my mouth just doesn't appeal to me. The process of actually chewing it seems exhausting somehow. It's so weird.
I started out thinking bland food would be safest and go down the easiest, but I've found that I do better with things that have more flavor and a bit more spice. I have no idea why. During the day, I live on peach and pear fruit cups, ritz crackers with either a little peanut butter or a slice of sharp cheese, and mini bagels. I've also started having Rice Krispies with a banana sliced up on it for breakfast since my potassium is low. I sometimes can eat a hard-boiled egg or a vanilla pudding cup, but I don't enjoy any of it. It doesn't taste bad, just have no desire to eat. If I couldn't drink Ensure, I would be in bad shape. I drink at least two a day.
Some things really don't taste right and I avoid those. They just taste off somehow. I'm always asking my family, "Does this taste right to you?" and when they say yes, I know it's the cancer/chemo making it taste wrong to me. I find I do better if I eat just a little bit every two hours or so instead of trying to eat full meals three times a day. Even a handful of pretzels or a little applesauce will help. Pasta works well for me. And pretty much any kind of potatoes except fried--usually love fried potatoes but they taste awful now. Because of my ileostomy, I cut my food into very small pieces and chew it well and that makes it a little easier to get down. Pork tenderloin is one of the easier meats for me to eat. I usually love beef, but not so much now.
I hope things go better for you and you can find something with protein that you can handle.
56 yrs old, wife, mother to 4 daughters
RC Stage II T3N0M0 DX April 2, 2015
6 cm. mid-rectum-CEA 121
Xeloda and radiation finished 06/15/15- CEA 242
CEA right before surgery 81
LAR performed 8/12/15 Temporary ileostomy
CEA 10-21-15 1.6
PET scan 11-4-15 All clear
Port installed 11/11/15
Folfox started 11/18/15
Folfox stopped due to bad reaction
CEA 2/3/16 1.7
CEA 3/31/16 1.3
CT Scan 4/12/16 All Clear
Port removed 4/21/16
CEA 5/24/17 1.4