Postby bitchslapped » Mon Nov 09, 2015 2:08 pm
First of all, have you considered creating a signature so members can see your situation @ a glance?
viewtopic.php?f=1&t=52681&p=414489If you check mine, you will see I took care of both my DM & DH @ home w/me in addition to our home-based business. It was a living nightmare. I'll leave out any expletives. I had a BFF for moral support which helped immensely #1), though not a lot of time for phone conversations. #2) I always challenged myself to be more efficient. I had to w/two of them. For instance, if measuring fluid intake throughout the day for your DH is a source of stress for you, try filling a thermal pitcher w/water/Gatorade, etc & a glass set near where he spends most of his time when he's home. Check it midday & refill as necessary. I used one from the hospital which holds 6 cups. Also consider supplementing his diet w/Boost or Ensure or some other protein supplement. Toss in a scoop of his favorite ice cream or fruit if you have to if he doesn't care for the taste. One problem I had was it filled my DH up so much that he then wasn't hungry @ all for further meals, so maybe use 1/2. #3) Try to avoid the "poor me's". It's not about you, really & will not help you @ all. One way to do this is if you are a Believer, you can accept that God put you in your DH's path because He knew this man would need you in his life. That also there may be things you need to learn, experience that will help you in your own life one day. Just sayin. We pull our strength from where we pull it. Or you just somehow come to terms w/the fact that this is your reality & take it as it comes. I have no answers on how to do this. Some of us are better @ focusing on the here & now.
I couldn't cry, but if I had a 3 yr old, I might have. It's tough, very, very tough. If you do anything for yourself, see that you get enough sleep to meet the challenges. I could tell you to eat right, get exercise, time for yourself, yadda, yadda, yadda. Of course those are important, however some of those things can become luxuries. Find what is the biggest burden of maintaining your household, what would bring you the biggest relief & hire it done to preserve some of your energy. Depending on the budget that may be once or twice a month. If it's just hiring a babysitter to have lunch w/your BFF, do it. If it's bringing someone in to clean house or mow the lawn occasionally, do it.
You can do this. Why? Because you have to. But it won't be easy. Ultimately your DH makes his own choices, as is his right. The only thing you can do is try to encourage him, then let go of it. He is not a child. You have many other things to do.
Very good input from everyone's posts. We all are afraid of the unknown. We just plow ahead best we can. You are struggling w/it because it
IS a tremendous struggle.
Best Wishes
bitchslapped
DSS,35YO,unresect mCRC DX 7/'14,lvr,LN,peri,rib
FOLFOX+Avstn 4 Rnds d/c 10/'14
Stent 9/'14
FOLFIRI+Avstn 10/'14
Gone From My Sight 2/20/15
Me:garden variety polyps + precancerous polyp, diverticulitis
Carergver x2 DH,DM dbl occupancy,'03-'10
DH dx 47YO mCRC,'04-'07, lvr, billiary tree fried x HAI
DM dx CC 85YO,CC,CHF,stroke,dementia,aphasia