Nope feel exactly the same.
Tomorrowis my last folfox, I already stopped the oxi, I feel lousy ,dead tired sleeping toes and painfull fingers, sad because I have to keep turning down my expectations of what I still can do ( tried to cycle to school last week and was trembling from exhaustion when I got there)
When ever I see people smoking ( ourside the hospital) or I see fat people, i ask myself "why don't they have cancer, and how long will it take for them to find out they have cancer)
I look forward to having it finished, but I'm very disappointed that indeed, as they all told me, I will need a few months recovery time to get back to work and health.( not necc in that order)
I have now told myself, i will not live from check up to check up. But i will live from school holiday to school holiday and plan fun things where ever possible.
Looking forward to be able to start at my "health plan" but dead scared of cancer returning, sort of thinking I know it will, and bracing myself already for the next fight.)
But first. I will buy myself a brand new pair of shoes. As soon as I can feel my toes
Think it's part of the whole process.
It sucks.
Annemiek