Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

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pukalania
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Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby pukalania » Mon Aug 17, 2015 1:35 pm

Hi sweet friends
I haven't visited for awhile but last few weeks have been so hectic ... So the world did become an emptier place and I lost the love of my life on August 2... He was only 39... He fought so bravely for 5.5 years and never ever complained about anything.. His mind was so strong and that you could never tell he was sick even after surgery, radiation or some nasty chemo cocktail... I have to say he died In a hard way... I feel like the hospice nurse did not assess him correctly and ended up slowly overdosing him on pain meds until his body started shaking... It was horrible... His liver has stopped working for awhile but his Heart was very strong ... I don't think pain meds were working..Still in discussions with hospice why did that happen this way..:( at the end tho through prayer he passed peacefully with a smile in my hands so that gives some comfort...since then we had to come back home and my little girl started kindergarten and it's been hard... But we will make it... I feel his love around us and giving us peace it feels like a miracle... But I miss him so very much ...
Thank you sweeties for always being there for us and all the advice and help... We couldn't have done this without you !!! Lots of hugs to all and I will be back to check in
Xoxo
wife 34 dx DH stage IV
Feb10 col res
May10 12 x FOLFOX
Aug12 tumor in sig colon,mets in liver
Aug12 Xeliri Ava
Oct12 xel celebrx rad
Feb13 liver/colon res
Sep13 ill reversal, fistula,
Folfiri SBRT,ADAPT ava
Apr 15 continued growth liver and lungs

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rwightman
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby rwightman » Mon Aug 17, 2015 1:51 pm

I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your daughter.
10/9/14 DX Age 50 - MSS
10/23/14 - Colon Resection - Stage II - 0/15 lympth nodes
12/30/14 - Stage IV - 1 liver met 2cc - Liver Resection - No lymph nodes and margins clear
3/10/15 - peri mets
3/15 - Folfox with Avastin - 7 tx
7/15 - HIPEC - 2 peri mets
10/14 - resection of abdominal met
11/12 - 5FU

Stanfordmom
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby Stanfordmom » Mon Aug 17, 2015 2:22 pm

Sending my deepest condolences. Also sending you strength and prayers.

Sha
DX 4/2/2014 at 44, stage 4, mets liver and ovaries
Mom to 2 boys
Three surgeries, HAI pump and lots of chemo
fighting!

ams5796
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby ams5796 » Mon Aug 17, 2015 2:23 pm

My thoughts go out to you and your young daughter. May you find peace in the coming days.


Ann
Stage 3C (or 4?) Rectal Cancer 01/07
2/10 lung mets
3/11 VATS
6/11 VATS
7/13 lung met
2/14 SBRT
NED 8/14
5/17 scan and MRI found treated spine met

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Annemiek
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby Annemiek » Mon Aug 17, 2015 2:34 pm

I'm so sorry for the lose of your love and your daughters daddy. I hope the nasty memories of the last week will fade and replaced with how you want to remember him, happy memories.
Wishing you strength and courage.

Annemiek

43 yr mum of a girl aged 7
10/2014 coloncancer stage IIIc
11/2014 HIPEC, tumor removed + 12 positive out of 60 ln
hysterectomy, abdominal lining partly removed
Peridonitus, stoma fitted, 6 abcesses drained in abdomen
MSS, kras
3/2015 Folfox, someones playing kill Bill inside me
9/2015 finished 12 rounds,
First scan results: NED!!!!!!!!!
4/2016 ct scan: NED!!!
7/2016 ultrasound: NED
10/2016 cr scan: NED
5/2017 ultrasound: NED 2,5 yrs!
CEA 8/2017 1.8 stable.
CT scan 11/2017 NED! 3 yrs
CEA 1.9

midlifemom
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby midlifemom » Mon Aug 17, 2015 2:56 pm

So sorry to hear of your loss. Cherish the love and memories.
Stage 3 cc - dx Jan '14 age 53, cea 2.9
t2n2m0, KRAS mutant, MSS
Folfox Feb - Aug '14
Nov '14 cea 27.7 -2 liver masses
Dec '14 left lobectomy and HAI
Jan '15 FUDR and FOLFIRI
Aug '15 fudr done, liver clear, add avastin for lungs. Cea 4.3
Feb '16 CEA rising
May '16 2 wk break then drop Iri for 6 weeks.
Jul '16 cancer grew, constricted main bile duct. Stent inserted. On break till jaundice clears. CEA climbing. Doing reduced Folfox. Allergic to Oxali.
Sep'16 chemo failed. Trial or hospice?

Lee
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby Lee » Mon Aug 17, 2015 3:11 pm

I am so sorry for your loss. You and your daughter will be in my thoughts and prayers. God be with you all,

((((HUGS))))

Lee
rectal cancer - April 2004
46 yrs old at diagnoses
stage III C - 6/13 lymph positive
radiation - 6 weeks
surgery - August 2004/hernia repair 2014
permanent colostomy
chemo - FOLFOX
NED - 16 years and counting!

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Icesk8tr
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby Icesk8tr » Mon Aug 17, 2015 3:50 pm

My deepest sympathy to you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you.

Hugs,
Christine
Stage IV CC 2010

jortego128
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby jortego128 » Mon Aug 17, 2015 3:59 pm

Im so sorry for your loss. 39 is so young, thats unreal.
DM 57 yrs old dx 6/8/15 T:4a N:1b M:1
KRAS G12D and TP53 C242fs mutations
Poorly Differentiated, Prominent Signet Ring Component(~50%)
Microsatellite Stable, 3 of (13)lymph nodes positive
15 Liver mets, largest 3.2 cm
Prim. Resection, Right Hemicolectomy 6/21/15
Start Chemo 7/20/15
2 rounds FOLFOX, 1 round FOLFOX +Avastin
CT 8/28/15, met growth, largest 4.5cm
4 rounds FOLFOX+Avastin
CT 11/06/15 mets stable, lungs clear
Begin FOLFIRI+Avastin 11/17/15, Stop chemo 1/26/16
Entered Paradise 3/11/2016

MSJC
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby MSJC » Mon Aug 17, 2015 4:03 pm

So very sorry for your loss, your family will be in our thoughts and prayers.
Mike, 49 y/o at Dx 1/14 stage 3c
low rectal cancer 7 nodes positive
2/14 5 weeks chemo/rad. 5-fu
4/14 Lar gallbladder removed,
temp ileostomy
5/14 8 rds Folfox
10/14 reversal surgery
5/15 clean colonoscopy
6/15 clean ct scan

DarknessEmbraced
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby DarknessEmbraced » Mon Aug 17, 2015 4:12 pm

So very sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences to you and your family.*hugs*
Diagnosed 10/28/14, age 36
Colon Resection 11/20/14, LAR (no illeo)
Stage 2a colon cancer, T3NOMO
Lymph-vascular invasion undetermined
0/22 lymph nodes
No chemo, no radiation
Clear Colonoscopy 04/29/15
NED 10/20/15
Ischemic Colitis 01/21/16
NED 11/10/16
CT Scan moved up due to high CEA 08/21/17
NED 09/25/17
NED 12/21/18
Clear colonoscopy 09/23/19
Clear 5 year scans 11/21/19- Considered cured! :)

pfCml73183
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby pfCml73183 » Mon Aug 17, 2015 5:18 pm

I am sending you my best wishes and prayers to help you get through this tough time. I am very sorry you have lost your husband.
Celeste
Wife and BF to Peter, 54
mCRC/IV/BRAF+
Erbitux and Urelumab trial @MSKCC 3/15
went home 5/8/15

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ziggymonster
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby ziggymonster » Mon Aug 17, 2015 5:26 pm

I am very sorry to hear of loss...cherish your good memories......I so hate this disease and what it does.
DX advanced prostate cancer 2002
2014 still fighting mPca , failed surgery, radiation, hormone
DX Stage IIIa Rectal Cancer 12/12 1 of 12 nodes +
LAR permanent colostomy 1/13
Folfox 2/13 - 7/13 clear CT CEA 1.2
7/14 liver met chemo the resect in Oct
6/15 2 pos lung mets watching for now

orcasres
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby orcasres » Mon Aug 17, 2015 6:39 pm

My deepest sympathy for you and your family. Lois
63 yo F
Colon resection Sept. 2010
pT3N0M0 Stage 2A
Medullary Tumor 6.5cm long
Lymphovascular invasion
Lynch negative
12 FOLFOX 11/2010 to 5/2011 8 w/Oxi
NED so far

Danieljt
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Re: Still in shock I lost the love of my life...

Postby Danieljt » Mon Aug 17, 2015 8:03 pm

Our heartfelt sympathy goes out to you and your daughter. Extra love and hugs to you both. How terrible this disease is, especially when it takes young people away from their families. We need to end this Now!
Dan n jackie
70 male stage 3b cc
Dx 5/9/14
Resection 7/1/14
dx 9/14
65 yr wife DLCl
Sct 3/21/19 Ned last 8 mo.


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