Scans completed Tuesday. Today got the results. Mets still growing. I figured as much seeing my CEA lately. I am now officially off of chemo. It's not working anymore. Met with a radiologist and scheduled SIRT for August 10. He said best possible scenario would be for it to prolong survival 5-7 months. Wow. I kinda knew I would get here eventually, but being here sucks. I hate it for my family and my mom. My sister died at 17 in a car accident. She shouldn't have to bury another child, but it's looking more and more like she will. Grim, I know, but my feelings are raw right now. Doctor said SIRT helps about 10% of patients reach resection, but in my case it was very unlikely. If there is any good in all of this, I am looking forward to life without chemo. The last two years have been chemo heavy. Dr. K did order mutation testing for my liver tumor. Maybe it will show what mutations I have and maybe lead to more effective chemo down the road. But I'm not getting my hopes up. Maybe one day someone will find a cure for this crap. I will probably take some time away from the forum. I want to try to get cancer off my mind for a while. Thanks to everyone who has supported and wished me well in the past. I hope all of you can beat this disease. There are lots of people on here who have done exactly that. I was hoping I would be one of them, but realistically that doesn't seem to be in the cards anymore. My goal from here on out is to live the best I can and love my family. That is all.
42 male at DX
Husband, father (girls 13 and 16)
Stage IV mets to liver Oct 2013
Xelox Dec 13-Apr 14
Avastin, Xeloda Apr-July 2014
Vectibix/Irinotecan Dec 2014
Colon resect/ HAI pump Jan 2015