Hope I don't spoil your holiday weekend... but I got the results today from my biopsy. I have moved from Stage 3b to Stage 4 with a single lymph node that is positive for metastatic colon cancer. My doctor was shocked as this is not usual... I told him that I was special and very unusual as my blood work is always good and after 5 year of clear scans... almost to the day of my last chemo treatment I am back in the game. I will be seeing the surgeon on Monday July 6th to plan the lymph node removal as well as the removal of as many as can be taken in the area to be tested.
After surgery we will decide about mop up chemo. The one thing I forgot to ask is for my medical marijuana card. So instead my dear hubby and I when out and had a few drinks. I know this is so fucking unfair and but am relieved to know what is going on and I can deal with it.
How is another story altogether. But, each of you are in the same situation as me ...however I was not blessed with children and my family pretty much sucks until they need something from me. My friends don't deal with sick or cancer no matter how long I have been there for them. Guess I am saying I don't have much to stick around for.
So I have nothing to lose and I would give my life to see anyone of you here be cured and to be there for your children and to continue your lives free of cancer. I maybe around a long time or maybe not so long .... it really doesn't matter... I just am sad that I never got to live on the ocean or visit the beach more.
LOL but with my luck a freaking shark probably would have decided to attack me.
I wish I could get drunk tonight ... but I have to go to work tomorrow and figure out how to get my disability insurance and tell the boss he has to replace me asap. I am done with this shit!