Biopsy - Metastatic Colon Cancer back after 5 year Clean

[chrissyrice]

Hope I don't spoil your holiday weekend... but I got the results today from my biopsy. I have moved from Stage 3b to Stage 4 with a single lymph node that is positive for metastatic colon cancer. My doctor was shocked as this is not usual... I told him that I was special and very unusual as my blood work is always good and after 5 year of clear scans... almost to the day of my last chemo treatment I am back in the game. I will be seeing the surgeon on Monday July 6th to plan the lymph node removal as well as the removal of as many as can be taken in the area to be tested.
After surgery we will decide about mop up chemo. The one thing I forgot to ask is for my medical marijuana card. So instead my dear hubby and I when out and had a few drinks. I know this is so fucking unfair and but am relieved to know what is going on and I can deal with it.
How is another story altogether. But, each of you are in the same situation as me ...however I was not blessed with children and my family pretty much sucks until they need something from me. My friends don't deal with sick or cancer no matter how long I have been there for them. Guess I am saying I don't have much to stick around for.
So I have nothing to lose and I would give my life to see anyone of you here be cured and to be there for your children and to continue your lives free of cancer. I maybe around a long time or maybe not so long .... it really doesn't matter... I just am sad that I never got to live on the ocean or visit the beach more.
LOL but with my luck a freaking shark probably would have decided to attack me.
I wish I could get drunk tonight ... but I have to go to work tomorrow and figure out how to get my disability insurance and tell the boss he has to replace me asap. I am done with this shit!

[Nik Colon]

Again, so sorry

[cathy123]

So very sorry - after 5 years that doesn't seem right. I hope it is just the one node and can be dealt with.

[MSJC]

It's really amazing how this crap stops your "normal" life in it's tracks. I for one appreciate your offer, but will not be taking you up on swapping lives. I believe you have many more friends here than you could possible imagine ... now go kick some cancer's ass young lady!

[midlifemom]

Sorry to hear your news.
No fair!

[Jack&KatiesMommy]

Chrissy
I am so very sorry! You don't deserve this! And you have your dear hubby....that sounds like a great reason to put up a good fight. It is great that the lymph node is resectable! Get it out of there...and start the NED clock ticking again....this time for more than 5 years!

Thinking oaf you and praying for you!
Cynthia

[edinaman]

I am so sorry that the cancer returned after 5 years. Have that drink (or two or more), and realize you could still have many years. You have many friends here who are pulling for you.
Jeff

[Danieljt]

Chrissy, please don't despair! I no it's a kick in the ass but you have got to carry on. My heart breaks for you and you sure don't deserve this. Every life is important and you life is important to us here on this forums, after things settle down you can dig in snd move forward. Hugs
Jackie

[justin case]

It's very hard to see people in turmoil, that I have grown to appreciate so much. I'll be thinking of you, as you make the most of what is important to you.
Your light on this forum is undeniable, so get better soon.
Warm regards,
Michael

[DarknessEmbraced]

I'm so very sorry.*hugs* So very unfair.

[Rasputin]

After 7 years, I "forgot" cancer. Never really thought about it. I hope treatment does you well!

[canadiandaughter]

Dear sweet Chrissy, you have more friends then you know and lots of "family" right here that really care about you! Go out and get plastered tomorrow night, whatever you need to do to vent, then come back and get ready to fight this bastard head on. You have your wonderful hubby who I am sure needs you so don't forget that! Plus you have one more person to fight for and that is you!!! You have so much to offer to this world. Sending you a big hug! Good luck with all the arrangements you need to make to get ready. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers that Monday you get a good plan with the surgeon and go kick cancer in the ass one more time!!

[ktwmn]

Dear Chrissy,
You have much to live for, a dear hubby who loves you, and I would suspect many more friends than you feel you have right now. I can tell from your postings that you are a kind, patient and helpful person; I am sure there are many people in your world who look to you for encouragement and positive vibes. You are in the middle of the darkest period of uncertainty, having battled this disease before and shocked and stunned that the beast has reared its ugly head after so long. But look at the positives: it is one lymph node that is likely resectable. Sure, there may be some adjuvant chemo but it is doable. I am dealing with a recurrence after 4 years and have had 6 tx of neoadjuvant folfiri + avastin in the hopes that someday I can be a candidate for surgery. I still work full-time. So, please don't jump to conclusions about having to quit your job and throw in the towel. In all likelihood your time spent in cancerland will be similar to your original resection and treatment, less than a year. Yes, you will think about it every day and yes, we are forever changed from the experience. But essentially you are Chrissy and not cancer and your powerful spirit will prevail. Hang in there and stay strong!

[lpas]

Oh Chrissy, I'm sorry. I was so hoping to hear better news from you about this. I say get that node out of there and we'll see what happens. It's way too early to be giving up. Your life is just as important as anyone elses's and you have lots of living left to do!! Remember, we're all here to support you!

[ziggymonster]

I'm so sorry to hear this...not fair but then cancer doesn't play fair. This weekend have a bunch of drinks,then next week get your plan ready. Hopefully just a single node....whack a mole!! You can do this.