Thanks so much everyone.
You all have helped me so much with your replies and ideas.
So I am getting my mojo back and ready to ask the surgeon some good questions on Monday. Not sure if I will get a second opinion or not it depends on what happens when we talk. He didn't do my resection and is at another hospital.
Like I forgot that I don't have to rush into surgery... I can wait a couple of weeks and get things settled at work and perhaps the hubby and I can get to the ocean for a few days.
Remember we are working under the assumption that this is a slower grower and I am not in danger of poop backing up to my ears!
I still am pissed about not getting my 5 year NED trophy on August 1st this year! I was so close, that it's like one of those awful nightmares.
I am so glad I have this place to come to and share my thoughts without judgements or stupid questions from people who don't get it.
I also started to believe in the future again... but I am 63 and the body is getting out of shape for long walks on the beach... guess I be spending more time at the tiki bar and if I can make it to the restroom in time that is exercise enough!