Postby Delinda2 » Mon Mar 30, 2015 1:20 am
Frenchie, thank you for the reminder that there is another side to the coin. For me, it's as if I'm afraid to get my hopes up. I have a long history of getting whacked on the head when I least expect it. But don't get me wrong, it doesn't consume my every thought or anything like that. It's just an awareness that I'm in a very high risk group. (You would shudder if you saw my pathology report.) No, it doesn't help or change my condition. I just try to enjoy each day that I can. I think it's realistic to understand that for most people with my status, a recurrence would not be a surprise. If it doesn't happen I'll be happy to shout, "I was wrong!" If it does, I won't be shocked & shattered. I'm not giving up at all, just prepared to cope with whatever happens. And I do appreciate your reminder. Your spirit and attitude are amazing - I admire you so. XXOXO, Delinda
63 yrs,wife & mom
4/14 dx colon cancer,3C,9/22 nodes
Lymphatic,venous,&perineural invasion
<1cm margin,poorly differentiated
6/14 colostomy take down
7/14 FOLFOX w/9 Nulasta shots
2/16 dx new primary of sigmoid colon
6/16 surgery-rescection on sigmoid, total hysterectomy, temp ileo, stage 4
"I AM the storm."