I had FOLFOX (but no Erbitux) and was no stranger to anxiety attacks....The night time was always the worst.But I am still here, nearly eight and a half years later, to show that modern medicine and surgery techniques are a wonderful thing.Am now sleeping through the night (took a long while!)and have returned to normal life. I know it's a cliche but truly take one day at a time, accept there will be some craters in the road which many good people will help you get out of, and really try to crowd out the 'what if?' thoughts from your head. Easier said than done I know, but perversely it always helped me to know that others felt as panic stricken as me, and that I wasn't going mad.
Remember that every chemo session is one ticked off and sends you further down the road to recovery. I wish you well.