The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

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Maggie Nell
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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby Maggie Nell » Fri Jul 07, 2017 4:37 pm

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.


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Wild Geese by Mary Oliver
DX April 2015, @ 54
35mm poorly diff. tumour found upon emergency r. hemicolectomy
for ileo-colic intussusception.
Lymph nodes: 0/22
T3 N0 MX
deranged LFTs April 2017

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Maia
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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby Maia » Fri Jul 07, 2017 5:19 pm

Sending love and strenght for you, Diana, specially for the upcoming hours, days.

Frenchie/ Ron: May you be free from suffering and the causes of suffering; May you never be separated from the happiness that knows no suffering.
Please, receive love from your friend Maia.

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby Lee » Fri Jul 07, 2017 6:01 pm

Diane,

There is a special thread for spouses here. It's titled "wives of husbands with stage IV cancer". Butt it is open to all caregivers

You might find it helpful, here is a link to it.

viewtopic.php?f=1&t=18704&start=3420

Holding you both in my thoughts and prayers.

Lee
rectal cancer - April 2004
46 yrs old at diagnoses
stage III C - 6/13 lymph positive
radiation - 6 weeks
surgery - August 2004/hernia repair 2014
permanent colostomy
chemo - FOLFOX
NED - 10 years and counting!

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby CRguy » Fri Jul 07, 2017 9:51 pm

When my father passed, his last weeks in palliative care were very peaceful and pain free
wishing the same for Ron.

Look at all the pages of posts he has here in his topic over the years

He is a valued and loved VIP on this forum

Harmony my friends
CRguy
Caregiver x 3
Stage IV A rectal cancer/lung met
10 Year survivor
my life is an ongoing NONrandomized UNcontrolled experiment with N=1 !
Review of my Journey so far

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby Bev G » Fri Jul 07, 2017 10:22 pm

Diane, sending wishes of everlasting peace to both you and Ron. I hope while there are people around being kind to our friend Ton, there are those being kind to you as well.

((((Diane))))

xox, Bev
58 yo Type1 DM 48 years
12/09 Stage IV 2/22 nodes + liver met, colon resec
3 tx FOLFIRI, liver resec 4/10
9/10 6 mos off chemo, Neg PET&CTC CEA nl
2/11 finished total 10 rounds chemo

9/13 ^17th clean PET/CT NED for now

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby bitchslapped » Sat Jul 08, 2017 5:22 pm

He has fought a very long and courageous battle with this monster and I am so very proud to have been here with him. I will be there at his side to the very end :(
Diane


He surely has...you both have been in the trenches together in very different ways. He knows you will be there best you can to love & support, see him through Palliative Care, ensuring his needs are met to the best possible level.
I understand your anguish Diane.

I hope you have support from friends or family for yourself.

Holding thoughts of you both very close.

BS
DSS,35YO,unresect mCRC DX 7/'14,lvr,LN,peri,rib
FOLFOX+Avstn 4 Rnds d/c 10/'14
Stent 9/'14
FOLFIRI+Avstn 10/'14
Gone From My Sight 2/20/15
Me:garden variety polyps + precancerous polyp
Carergver x2 DH,DM dbl occupancy,'03-'10
DH dx 47YO mCRC,'04-'07 fried x HAI
DM dx CC 85YO,CC,CHF,stroke,dementia,aphasia

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby SurvivorsSpouse » Sat Jul 08, 2017 6:16 pm

Thoughts and prayers for your family's peace at this time.

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby Sharon Brent » Sun Jul 09, 2017 8:00 am

It is with a heavy heart I read your post Diane, but know that every decision you have made and everything you have done has been right for Ron and You.

No matter what lies ahead always remember you have done an amazing job and Ron has fought a long War and survived many battles.

Sending you my Love and strength for what lies ahead,

Piyagarn
DH, 47yo, Dx Stg IV, mCRC, lvr, lng 1/14, Tx Capeciabine 9 rnds
Children 5 & 1
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Home palliative care on 12 November 2014
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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby tammylayne » Sun Jul 09, 2017 8:52 am

Sending peaceful thoughts, calming energy and gentle hugs...oh so many gentle hugs.
51 F
'06 Stage 1 CC,
'10 Stage 3 Rectal

"You never know how strong you are until you have to become your own hero."

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby Frenchie » Sun Jul 09, 2017 5:05 pm

It is with a heave heart that I let you all know that your dear friend Frenchie and my soulmate Ron has passed away this afternoon :(

Diane
Caregiver to DH 59 yr, male, Stage IV at Dx
Dx Sept 2009
Liver,bladder mets, 5 surgeries
Lots of chemo
Inoperable lung mets nov 2013
Stopped all treatments in February 2014 due to QOL issues
I am in God's hands now !!
Feb 2015 - too many new mets to count !
At peace July 9, 2017

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby DebZ » Sun Jul 09, 2017 5:35 pm

I am so sorry, Diane. You and Frenchie are in my thoughts and prayers.
48 @ diagnosis Sept 2014
MSS; Kras mutant G12D
Oct 2014: right hemicolectomy
Dec 2014: Folfox 12 treatments (lots of reductions in oxaliplatin and ceased before end)
June 2015: clean scans
Sept 2015: scans reveal ovarian mass and liver met; Folfiri
Jan 2016: liver wedge resection and complete hysterectomy
April 2016: multiple lung mets; Folfiri+Avastin
June 2017: lung mets growing; switching to Folfox+Avastin

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby Lee » Sun Jul 09, 2017 5:47 pm

NO :cry:

(((Diane))) My condolences to you and your family.

Frenchie was special person, he loved life. He will be missed by many people. This thread is a tribute to him.

Rest in peace dear Frenchie,

Lee
rectal cancer - April 2004
46 yrs old at diagnoses
stage III C - 6/13 lymph positive
radiation - 6 weeks
surgery - August 2004/hernia repair 2014
permanent colostomy
chemo - FOLFOX
NED - 10 years and counting!

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby LeonW » Sun Jul 09, 2017 5:49 pm

Dear Diana,
Sorry to hear the sad news. I wished Ron would have found a wayout for a 10th escape, but we all knew there were little options.

Ron was here long before I joined, but boy did he make an impression. I've enjoyed the courageous manner he dealt with life. He's been an inspiration and made me learn a lot.
He has fought a very long and courageous battle with this monster and I am so very proud to have been here with him. Diane

So true. Please hold on to your pride. He and you deserve so.
With condolences,
Leon
Dec 2012 - Dx CC; MM @ 65yrs, 2 unresect liver mets, CEA 41.8
Jan 2013 - colectomy @ spleen (IVa T3N1bM1a) 2/26 nodes, MSI-low
Feb-Aug - 1x Xelox-7x Xelox/Avastin, mets shrink from #3
Sept - 2x failed Portal Vein embolization
Oct 2013 - R liver resect 28 hosp days (liver failure, delirium, emboli, encephalopathy) Pathology: no cancer cells pCR (ypT0N0M0)
2014/15 - recovery; benign polyp Apr '15
Apr 2016 new house/town/life
clean CTs and 1.3/1.4 CEAs: 4x2014, 4x2015/16, May2017; next Nov 2017

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby Canada777 » Sun Jul 09, 2017 6:32 pm

So very sorry to hear of this news Diane. I've read so many of your/his posts and been inspired by his ability to persevere. My condolences.
BF dx. Stage 4 Colon cancer with Peri mets Dec '15 @ age 29
12 Rounds FOLFOX Jan-June 2016
4 month chemo break. Still only Peri mets.
Successful HIPEC Oct. 2016.
Diagnosis now confirmed as appendix cancer.

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Re: The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

Postby Frenchie » Sun Jul 09, 2017 6:32 pm

LeonW wrote:Dear Diana,

I've enjoyed the courageous manner he dealt with life. He's been an inspiration and made me learn a lot.

Leon



Leon,
I to have enjoyed the courageous manner he dealt with life and he inspired me every day. I hope to take what he has taught me along into the rest of my future till I meet him again. :)
Caregiver to DH 59 yr, male, Stage IV at Dx
Dx Sept 2009
Liver,bladder mets, 5 surgeries
Lots of chemo
Inoperable lung mets nov 2013
Stopped all treatments in February 2014 due to QOL issues
I am in God's hands now !!
Feb 2015 - too many new mets to count !
At peace July 9, 2017


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