The Grim Reaper took another swipe at me !!

[Frenchie's Wife]

Peanut, I am trying really hard to be depressed but I can't right now,
could you help me out her ??
Crappy stuff is happening at lightning speed to me again. Today does not look
all that well as far as my health goes. I can usually tell with a high degree of
certainty what type of day I will havea about an hour after I start moving around.
The fact that I've hardly had a Puff in days also tells me that I am not firing on
all cyclinders

Whenever I start to feel sorry for myself, this little TID BIT pops up like an
Add on Facebook for those of you on there.

Look at your situation again my friend:
You have terminal cancer and were given 6 to 9 months to live over 5
years ago now.
You have beaton almost unsermountable odds to get here.
You have NEVER experienced cancer pain of any kind since your journey began.

The doctors have to fight to keep you in the hospital for more than a few days.
They managed to keep you in the hospital for a month when you had the
3 operations in one, including Hipic. You drove the nurses, patients and staff crazy
with your antics as usual .
You are ready to go home the day after an operation because you experience
No pain and refuse any and all pain medication. You just don't need them.
Your a few months away from dying and you look fabulous !!

Now, once I process that thought, my depression goes away instantly !!
Peanut, what can I now do to stay depressed a little longer ??

[Frenchie's Wife]

Peanut !! I almost had an honest to goodness heart attack yesterday afternoon !!

Someone called me and told me that my favorite Chinese food resteraunt had
Closed down abruptly without notice !! They had driven by and the place looked
shuttered !

I rushed down to see for myself. This place makes special nutritious Chinese
dishes for me. They are nearby and they deliver !

It turned out to be a false alarm. They just had their BIG sunscreens down
because of the sunshine. Boy, what a scare that was !!

I put in my order for supper and went home content again

[Frenchie's Wife]

Talking about drug sniffing dogs Peanut, I have another story for you.

My brother is semi retired. Last summer, him and I went on a 6 week
Motorhome adventure in the Rocky Mountains. You have to experience it
for yourself. I can not adequately describe the awesomeness of it all.

Anyway, turns out, we had to drive over 100 miles over a steep mountain
pass with lots of cliff defing twists and turns in order to avoid drug sniffing
Dogs at the ferry terminal.
We were forced to take the old route to our destination that day. To be honest,
it was quite science and we did not really mind. Hardly anyone else was on the road that day. Since we got there before the ferry docked, we also got the best camping spot
down next to the river where our dogs could splash around. That was a good trip.
I could not have done this if I had still been on Chemo.

Stopping chemo has shortened my life a little, I know that. On the other hand,
I am living now, not just existing. I have no regrets about having quit chemo
Abruptly over a year ago now. I would do it again in a heartbeat !!

[Frenchie's Wife]

I have reached a point in my journey where there is no more magic pills
or formulas to be had for me. The oncologist was very specific about that
last week when we met. The drugs I am on now will last from 1 to 5 months
according to her. Then I will most certainly be bed ridden at the very least.

I just can't get them to understand, YOU CAN T KEEP OLD FRENCHIE DOWN !!

Anything could happen now. I am off just about every drug I was taking. I
could have a stroke, a blood clot to the brain, etc. the Grim Reaper upped
the anty again.

Apparently, I had a Pulminory Embolisiom awhile back. That is when they
discoved that I had blood-clots in my right leg. It went right into my lungs
OVERNIGHT again. We have already death with that now. But it almost happened
again, only much worse this time.
I went for yet another operation awhile back now and they inserted a pic line
In my left arm. I have had several cancer related operations, so I don't get very
excited about those.

Well, turns out that it was a huge mistake to keep the pick in too long.
By the time they scanned me two weeks later, my left arm was FULL OF BLOOD
CLOTS !! It was so bad that I had a huge one pop up in my neck OVERNIGHT !!
Now you understand why I am afraid to close my eyes at night !!??!!

[peanut_8]

Good morning Frenchie, and Sharon. I work up this morning to find there was a special tax day coupon for 20% off my entire order at my habit.com. (Mr. Nut truly hates my habit.com)
Anyway, I saw a really nice pair of red heels, a faux snow rabbit throw, a lovely wrap dress, and gel pillow. Oh my. I hope Mrs. Frenchie doesn't hear about it Frenchie. They may even have mink coats there.

Now I'll tell you about my breakfast, Frenchie. We don't have an A&W here, so I have to make it myself. I am a yogurt connoisseur. I make my own yogurt, and for breakfast make a smoothie. I add kale, frozen bananas, blueberries, and strawberries, and a dash of stevia for sweetness. Then I blend it all together. This takes a mighty strong blender, and we have just the machine, a blend-tec. If you were here, I would make one for you.

I'm sorry you aren't feeling the best today. I would like to hear more about your adventure in the Rocky Mountains. Did you see any wildlife?
peanut

[Frenchie's Wife]

I have to settle for warmed over kisses these days Peanut.

Mrs Frenchie is a very busy woman these days. Her assistant resigned on short
notice recently. She looks after twenty something apartment buildings in a huge
complex here in our town. I don't know if there is a bigger one in town. I'll
Have to ask her that.

She has lots of dependable staff she can count on to lighten her load.
She is on call 24 hrs a day. The phone often rings at odd hours for her.

She comes home in a very good mood every night. She does not let her
job stress he out.

AT LEAST IVE GOT BEER !!
I can still walk the two blocks to the beer store !!

[peanut_8]

BEER IS GOOD FOR YOU. I'm pretty sure I've read that here on the Colon Club somewhere.

[peanut_8]

Frenchie, that reminded of one of my favorite songs.

Beer Run

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m1vRvW3QUys

[Frenchie's Wife]

There is a French song on the radio playing now peanut. It is called
" Chason D'Amour."
It is a French classic. It is about this fellow who feels
so good about life that he feels compelled to tell the world about his
good fortune.
I feel like that sometimes Peanut. Maybe not today, butr rather often.
I can't help myself, I can not for the life of me feel sorry
for myself these days. I have been playing with house money so long
that I feel invincible !!

[Frenchie's Wife]

Cancer took another great artist yesterday. Otis Redding died of liver cancer.
He was the father of soul to me. I could relate to his songs. He was 74
He had tons of money to put up a good fight but alas, the cancer got
Him in the end anyway.

I have also been reading about all the artists that have died in plane crashes
In the past 30 years or so. There are litterly dozens ! I thought those darn
planes were safe for Pete's sake, what's with that ??

[peanut_8]

There's quite a few of them that didn't make it past age 27. We are in quite a bit better shape than them Frenchie.

[Sharon Brent]

Good Evening Frenchie, Peanut and everyone,

Well for once the weather man was right about the weather today in London it was 24-25 Degrees and if you were in the Sunshine it was over 28 degrees lovely, well I went to my freinds house for her sons 6th Birthday he goes to the same school as my daughter and they are good friends. she has a two year old as well about 6 months younger than my other daughter but they play quite well together for 2 year olds.

Well we had cake, snacks, juice, loads of balloons and a lot of fun, shed up her son and my daughter from school and then picked me and then picked me and my other daughetr up and we went to her house, we only had a short party for her son about 2 hours as they both started their first Tae Kwon Do Class at 5.

They seemed to enjoy it and its very good for discipline, self defence and keeps them fit, I'm hoping she will be at least a green or red belt within a few years, I will take her twice a week.

I hope you are doing well todayFrenchie and Peanut.

Oh by the way, when I talk about times I'm talink about UK time, its 8.20 pm here, 6 hours ahead of Alberta Canada and 8 hours ahead of California

[Frenchie's Wife]

You are ahead of us time wise Sharon ?? Well, we can't have that can we.
I will have to put on my Superman cape and rotate the world in the opposite
direction. You will now be 6 hours behind !!!

[andy21]

Hi Frenchie,

You have lots of courage which I admire.

I believe you have shown how to have determination, dignity and sense of humor in very tough circumstances.

Sometime back I wrote following. (viewtopic.php?f=1&t=37791&p=347891&hilit=we+shall+fight#p347891)

We shall go on to the end. We shall fight with Chemo, we shall fight with Surgery, we shall fight with growing confidence and growing strength in the medical field, we shall defend our body, whatever the cost may be. We shall fight with faith, we shall fight with prayers, we shall fight with supplements/juices and with HAI Pumps, we shall fight with the new Clinical Trials and blessings of caregivers/family; We shall never surrender.

This fight will be remembered as our finest hour.

And

KarMel wrote:
We shall fight with dignity and determination
We shall fight knowing that, even if the body should lose the battle, our hearts and our minds and our spirits prevailed.

[Frenchie's Wife]

HERE IS MY TAKE ON CHEMO

I tolerated chemo fairly well before I quit abruptly last year. The chemo
Was not really that bad but my quality of life suffered immensely .

The pot took care of all the nausea problems associated with chemo.
I did not have to take any other nausea medication the whole time
I was on chemo. I just smoked my little heart out !!

The only, and biggest problem I had was with fatigue. I always had to
be aware of the spoon theory. I was, and still am, counting these every day.
It is very helpful as a reminder to slow down for me. When I have a good
day, I sometimes tend to over exert myself and pay for it the next day or so.

I would have a few joints at home, then whistle all the way to the cancer centre.
It is a lovely 10 minute walk from my house. I could easily walk there until
quite recently. Well, I hardly cried when they stuck that big old needle
In my arm after that !! All that poisen dripping into my vains ....drip, drip, drip.

More than one chemo patient has told me that the chemo treatments are worse
Than the cancer itself.
I tend to agree .......