Postby WifeOfMike » Mon Feb 09, 2015 11:12 pm
Loss of a Loved one is something I unfortunately know too much of.
I lost my baby sister in 1995 at 36, and her 4 year old son at the same sad accident. I saw first hand what it did to my parents and know what to did to me.
A scant two years later I lost my older brother in 1997 at 44, in another quick incident. It devastated my parents for a long time- I am not sure my dad ever got over it.
Speed dial to 2011 and I lost my father, on his 96th birthday no less.
I just lost my hubby & best friend of 34 years January 1st 2015, at the young age of 59
I know that my life will go on, as much pain as I feel today. My earlier losses have taught me that much. Yes, at odd times through the years I still get hit by their loss & wish they were here
I can also tell you, although I miss every single one of them, that the pain looses it's razor sharp edges and the beautiful memories become stronger..... over time.
I remember the laughter, the good times, even conversations with all of them. I remember holidays and fun times spent. I remember goofy times and special moments
Those are the thoughts that get me through each day now. That and knowing it would have devastated them if their not being here with me now, brought me to my knees
So through my tears, I get up every day and put my feet in motion.... for them, for ME, for my 3 sons, my mom & dear friends- who are still with me
I also know that although my heart has broken many times, I really believe that it has grown back stronger, with a bigger compassion for my friends & family
I light candles every night in honor of all we have lost, for the loved ones left behind, and for those in the fight
This poem for ME, sums it up. I hope it helps one of you in your sadness, and lifts your heart- if even for a moment.
I walk beside you, although you may not see me
Much love to all,
Vicki
The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths.
These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern.
Beautiful people do not just happen."
- Elizabeth Kubler Ross
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