Hi Mary, I know exactly how you are feeling. I started chemo in
Oct 2004 and had a 6 month break from my treatment in March.
I felt so lost, depressed and scared the whole time. I think chemo
is a security blanket, plus not having the nurses and other patients
to talk to about our feelings. I started Xeloda 2 weeks ago and feel
better already. My situation is a little different. I am stage IV, 63
with mets to my Lung and Liver. You could be feeling the loss of
being with people that understand what it is like living with Cancer,
and also concerned about it coming back. This board can give you
confidence, live for today and celebrate your success. Watch good
movies, go out to eat and most of all, thank God everyday that you
made it through your treatments. Good luck.