Stephen, for weeks now I've been thinking about Ashley first thing when I wake up every morning and last thing before I go to bed. Now I sit here with tears in my eyes as I read the news. I am so, so sorry. I will never forget her. A strong woman is not only a woman who keeps fighting, but a woman who decides how she is going to live her life, whatever time she has left, as she wishes. Sometimes you take the cards you're dealt and you make the best hand you can and just go all in. That was Ashley to a tee. She gave us all some priceless lessons about life and the art of living. Despite having been cut far, far too short, her life was a thing of far greater beauty and grace and spirit than most people manage in whatever time they've been given.
I know this is a small thing compared to your grief, but there are so many ways we disseminate parts of ourselves into others’ lives and have no idea that they remain. I will always remember the video of Ashley skydiving. I've told so many people about it and they, in turn, have told so many others. And I will always remember the love between the two of you. She will live on in my memory and my heart forever. And YES, go live your life with joy as Ashley wanted you to do! And on every adventure you will feel her presence. I am expending buckets of peace and strength in your direction in hopes that somehow it will reach you.
Stage IVb, liver/lung mets 8/4/2010
Xelox+Avastin 8/18/10 to 10/21/2011
LAR, liver resec, HAI pump 11/2011
Adjuvant Irinotecan + FUDR
Double lung surgery + ileo reversal 2/2012
Adjuvant FUDR + Xeloda
VATS rt. lung 12/2012 - benign granuloma!
VATS left lung 11/2013
NED 11/22/13 to 12/18/2019, CEA<1