Thank you for all your kindness. I spent the weekend in the hospital with a blockage but I'm home now and feeling much better. Had quite a time in the ER on Friday night. The place was packed and I bet 70% of those people didn't need to be there. They were chatting with friends and family, texting, walking around. And lots of obese people there. I have nothing against obese people - I could stand to lose a few pounds myself; I just found it odd so many were in the ER. So there I was sitting there - literally crying from the pain with my barf bag, shaking (my leg shakes badly when I'm in pain). It took over 2 hours for me to be seen.
Once in - 2 different nurses tried to access my port to no avail. The 2nd one tried to flush it with saline and it hurt so bad I literally screamed out loud. At least they got a vein on the first poke and finally got some fluids, pain and nausea meds into me. My ER nurse was some young guy that had a Tigger personality, was quite pleased with himself and liked to tell border line inappropriate jokes. I couldn't wait to get away from him. He was awful.
Once I got a room upstairs the treatment I received was excellent. A nurse from IV Therapy came to my room and accessed my port successfully with one quick poke and I got rid of the IV. I was released Sunday afternoon and felt so much better.
Yesterday I even cooked dinner. It was super quick and easy - a bottom round roast in the crockpot with sliced carrots, fingerling potatoes and for the liquid/seasoning, a can of cream of mushroom soup and a packet of dry Lipton Onion Soup Mix. When it was all done I took the liquid - put it in a pan on the stove, added some corn starch as thickener and made gravy. Doesn't get any easier than that and it was delicious. I even had wine with dinner. First time in months.
Today I see my oncologist to tell him I want to stop treatment and bring in hospice. Wish me luck and strength. I know he's going to want me to continue treatment and I just can't do it.
Belle - "Don't Retreat - Reload"DX 10/07 Stage III Rectal
Surgery 11/07; 27 of 38 nodes
Perm Colostomy 8/11
12/10 recurrence lungs & LN's
VATS Jan 2011
Radiation Oct 2013
Chemo for Life
2012 Colondar Model