Postby Sleen » Sat Jul 18, 2015 1:31 am
Hi guys!
Can't remember who I told what, so maybe ask me questions and I can post here. Hoping (!) to get back to the blog. Much excitement surrounding my case keeps me very busy relating various aspects of the story to people who drop by in person or via other (electronic) means. It is a long, long story if I don't leave out all the Catholic-faith-related stuff. Planning to stick to the science for the most part on the blog, but obv. can't wash all faith-related stuff out since it is part of who I am and was instrumental in my ability to cope w/all that occurred. Some days were really, really hard. DH was not able to stay w/me the whole time since we have five kids who needed at least one parent--also, once I became neutropenic, he was adamant that I receive no visitors, not even him. So. That paved the way for the staff to spend even more time w/me, since I was essentially trapped in my own body (due to weakness), in a sense, for so many days.
To help you understand how weak I was...there were days that I would force myself to order "anything" to try to eat...I had a principle of taking my meals in a chair rather than the bed as often as I possibly could. Some days, I'd make it the 3-feet to the chair, sit down, uncover my dinner plate...take two bites and realize, I'm too weak to hold the fork. Stumble back to bed. Not hungry anyway...eating by sheer force of will b/c I strongly believed that was my quickest way to recovery.
I am STILL weak. This is my third full day home. Went out in public for the first time today, since Father's Day, June 21. Barely made it back up my driveway (walking). Teen daughters had to hoist me up--one arm around each girls' neck--for me to make my way back into the house, heaving for air. My strength is coming back, a little each day. I need to discover where my limits are...walking up the driveway is not something I can do alone yet. Driving is out of the question. Cannot pour from a gallon jug, etc. YET. yet. That said, brain functioning great and spirits never better.
Being naturally inquisitive, and with a "flock of white-coats" at my disposal two-to-four times DAILY I was firing off questions and offering my "take" on things almost every time the docs did rounds, once the chemo days were over. My odd mix of skills/experience came in very handy...many was the time I heard, "She's an engineer, she wants to know EVERYTHING." Too right. I still have questions. The more I learn, the more I want to learn. It is all so fascinating, esp. since my cells reacted against K-RAS. That alone made my case unique, but then when they realized that hey...she's not having s/e from the IL-2...what-the-what?...they became MORE CURIOUS about me.
The nurses and docs were all very generous with their time. I sometimes spent HOURS with one of the staff, discussing any number of topics. The fact that Farid Fata was being sentenced during one of my weeks at NIH was an amazing ice-breaker with many of the staff...I was always looking for the latest word on the courtroom action. Got into many a "mom" discussion with the nurses. Talked religion with one, cards with another, art with another, etc. etc. etc. ...anyone and everyone who entered my room knew that if they wanted to talk, this was the place. One guy wanted a math tutor! Another told me all about her wedding plans.
Ahh...thought I'd get to bed before 1:30a and it's already 2:30a...more later. Glad to be home, and glad the fam is back from their week-long trip safely!
Celine
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Sleen on Thu Aug 20, 2015 4:52 pm, edited 1 time in total.
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Cancer RiotNED since April 2016!April 2016: lower left lung lobectomy.
NED8 mo. f/u: 1 of 7 tumors progressed.
6 mo. f/u
PR confirmed (Jan 2016)
Jul 2015: NIH TIL trial
NCT01174121 NCI/NIH Surgery Branch FAQDec 2014 confirmed stage IV w/bilateral lung mets
FOLFOX + Radiation (bladder)
KRAS G12D :: MSS
dx Sep 2013 @47yo: IIIc T4b N2b MX [bladder invasion, 17/21 lymph nodes]
Married 34 yrs. kids:
28,
25,
21,
16,
14 SE Michigan home schooler, unemployed mechanical engineer, and programmer.