I put off reading your blog this month, Belle, because I really didn't want to face or think about the issue. But eventually I figured, I owe it to my friend to share some of her pain.
We're all kind of selfish. We want the people we know, respect and love to remain with us for as long as possible. But we've all seen what can happen, and it can be pretty ugly all around. At some point, we all have to let go. I think most of us hope that it will be either quick or clean or painless or easy. But the odds of that happening for any of the people on this board are pretty slim. I've always said, "I know how this ends--I just don't know when."
I think I know you well enough to know that this is a well reasoned, rational decision on your part. Only you know when you've had enough. And when that time comes, it helps to have the courage to act in your own best interest.
So I'm sad beyond words, but respect your decision, even though (the selfish) part of me hopes that you'll reconsider and stay with us longer.
I know you'll follow the right path, Belle. We should all aspire to such courage and honesty.
BTW, I think your photo choice is exquisitely appropriate.
Dx: 3/09, Stage 4 RC
Recurrences: (ongoing, lung, bronchial cavity, ribs)
Major Ops: 6/ RFA: 3 /bronchoscopies: 8
Pelvic radiation: 5 wks. Bronchial radiation—brachytheray: 3 treatments
Chemo Rounds (career):136
Current Chemo Cocktail: Xeloda & Erbitux & Irinotecan biweekly
Current Cocktail; On the Wagon (mostly)
Bicycle miles post-dx 10,477
Motto: Live your life like it's going to be a long one, because it just might, and then you'll be glad you did.