Hi all,
I am booked in for an examination under anaesthetic aka flex sigmoidoscopy tomorrow morning and it is a big day for me. If everything comes back clear, then I will officially be 'in remission' and they will move me into the 'surveillance phase'. It sounds weird but I have never wanted to be under surveillance so much!
I have already had PET and MRI come back clear but I am a little sceptical of the imaging and I will not believe I am NED unless this physical examination comes back clear as well.
Even if I do get good news tomorrow, I know I am not out of the woods completely. I have chosen the 'non-standard' watch and wait approach and so there is a risk of recurrence. I think I am ok with this mentally but we will see.
I don't want to get too carried away if I get good news tomorrow but I have been very careful up to now and I think it will be worthy of a mini-celebration. Call me sad if you like, but I have already lined up a new iPhone either way (celebration or commiseration gift!)
Fingers crossed!