Hi my friends. My father whom I loved dearly passed away after five years of courageously and gracefully fighting colon cancer while living his life to the fullest. It's strange how knowing for some time now this was coming and thinking I was prepared have had almost no impact as the pain and grief are at times breathtaking.
I find my self thinking that while the term "lost his battle" is often used in this context, for me my dad's battle ended in glorious victory. I think of his strength, humility, dignity and humor which remained untouched and feel so empowered and proud.
I'm so relieved to say his passing was pain free and peaceful - he was able to pass as he wished at home, in his bed. I feared this part of his journey tremendously but as his dedicated onc predicted (he died of liver failure) the last week or two he just spent more and more hours a day sleeping, pain controlled by morphine patches, until he very peacefully drifted away. I know this is a true blessing.
I want to thank my friends on this board. This community has been a priceless source of information and support for the past 5 years and a constant reminder of everything in this world that is worth living and fighting for.
Much love to you all, Eve.
Last edited by eve
on Sat Aug 09, 2014 8:28 am, edited 1 time in total.
2009 Dad (age 66) CC stage IV
December 2012 liver resection
March 2013 lung liver mets
Xelox and Avastin
Xeloda and Erbitux
My lovely dad passed July 2014
BTW please forxgive mistakes, my english is far from perfect.