Hey gang,
Wanted to stop by & say HI.......
Hope your "Spring Cleaning" went well Exaussie......did mine summer of 2013.....guess it is time for a redo, not that I have any time
I am glad to hear ValPal, that your memories are leaning towards happier times together with your Danny. Mine are still mixed & muddled
Still scrambling to get our business full service- which meant getting a handle on coins.... a small but integral part of the mix & something only hubby really knew
Also still sorting some of the 40 year accumulation, even my sons grand-kids would never get to. Hubby loved to pack-rat, and you cannot speed through a serious collectors piles, for fear something valuable is hidden like a needle in a haystack, with vultures waiting to pick us off
I can see headway, but if I look up- I see the mountain before me. So on I plod, with eyes straight ahead. I am working 6 days/ week- & lots of stuff fills my "day off".... if you can call it that. I call it hump day.
Mom's house went on the market & the first looker put in a bid....... which fell through on the last day- so 2 new buyers were shown property- one said YES. Next thing we knew first buyers asked for a little more "time" to search for a lender...... so we are in the waiting game with two irons in the fire. Made numerous trips back & forth (one hr each way) to bring some stuff HERE- as she will be moving in with me. Which means youngest son/ girlfriend is moving into an apartment- May 11th, so two moves on the horizon hopefully before May 31st. Which also means painting, re-carpeting, etc my sons room to make way for mom. It was SO much easier when I had my sole mate. We were such a great team, dividing up the difficult stuff, and now the cheese stands ALONE. I am doing both of our piles, with new added stuff the situation heaped on, and I have to focus on each task, so as to not be overwhelmed. Obstacles and Murphy's law are NOT my friends, but I try & roll with the tide
I am being torn to shreds, because I still have not been able to do hubby's Celebration of Life Ceremony. I was really close end of March & my best friend got strep throat for over a month (she is helping), so we had to postpone all thru April. LIFE/ deadlines keeps getting in the way. I know HE would understand, but feel like the rest of the pack of wolves will NOT & judgement is being passed. I guess I should not care what anyone else thinks... no one else knows unless they are walking in my shoes (except all of YOU). Guilt, creeps in, and I am trying to shove it under a mat. With all of the moves, etc......... It makes me nauseous to think this will now be put off until June..... six months after our loss and runs close to his birthday (June 19th) and smack into an out of town trade show we are obligated to do. GULP...... Where the heck did time fly off to??????? I want to both slow down AND speed up time, all within each day. Did any of you face this kind of time pressure hell??????
I finally took the many photos taken in December of our family & put them into the proper frames. I made a huge one of us & the boys for our business. I wanted it on the wall as a reminder to many that it is HIS legacy we are carrying on, with love & pride. Next year will be our forty year anniversary of the business, with the 3rd generation (our 3 sons). Needless to say, it was a tearful evening, as I looked into his smiling face. He was SO very happy that day..... but it also reminded me how hard it was for him to stand (he insisted) in a couple of the shots. His Celebration of life posters- with photos of his entire life were in there too, and as I looked at Mike from boy hood, through the last days, I was overwhelmed & cried into my pillows last night. I guess it boils down to the grief, I have been stuffing under the mat as well, trying to keep my head above water. I miss you darling man, so much it hurts. We were supposed to be starting to unwind & enjoy the fruits of our life together. I understand your feeling of being cheated Val, I truly do. I'm hoping having mom here, will help remove some of the emptiness & lonely voids that hit in the middle of the night
Sorry for singing the Blues. I blame it on the grey clouds this evening
Hugs and best wishes to you all,
Vicki