Yes, good idea to bump this thread. It is one avenue to throw one's feelings, thoughts out there. Plenty of threads to read & identify with. It can be helpful to know that there are others who understand.
Candy, sleep disturbance + grief can certainly affect one's ability to focus, or possibly even to care. Hoping you can find purpose through your business again & lose yourself in the craziness of the tax season. Don't know how to pull it off, but you know you have to for your customers & ultimately yourself. So very tough to do. I was still caregiving for my DM @ the time I lost my DH, so I had to function for her. Wish I had some kind of magic to share.
CD, Hoping it's somewhat of a relief for you that your mom & aunt may team up. Thinking of your son's BD may be a time to break tradition in how or where you celebrate. Considering tradition is already broken for your family now & not to take away from your son, consider changing it up entirely somehow this year. Maybe keeping it neutral such as dining @ a restaurant or some other activity you normally have not done. Your dad w/b missed; no changing that, but some type of small diversion may ease things a bit. It may also be a time to honor grandpa w/everyone sharing a favorite story or memory.
Wishing peace & continued healing for all.
DSS,35YO,unresect mCRC DX 7/'14,lvr,LN,peri,rib
FOLFOX+Avstn 4 Rnds d/c 10/'14
Gone From My Sight 2/20/15
Me:garden variety polyps + precancerous polyp
Carergver x2 DH,DM dbl occupancy,'03-'10
DH dx 47YO mCRC,'04-'07 fried x HAI
DM dx CC 85YO,CC,CHF,stroke,dementia,aphasia