I am glad you are all checking in. YES, the loneliness is so thick, it can be cut with a knife- especially at night time when it is quiet.
I'm hoping my mom's house sale is REALLY going through on June 30th, which means anywhere between the 1st & 7th of July, she will be moving in with me.
That should help us both & I am pretty excited about it, although dreading moving someone once again... in 100 degree heat to boot!
I finally decided the right time to jump in our boat & do the small PRIVATE Celebration of Life for Mike
June 19th would have been his 60th Birthday. We closed our business & at 2:30 jumped in our 21' boat & headed to sea
My goal was to honor their father, but to not make it a tearful, glum day. Something my dear Mike would have wanted
Our 21' Boat, Brian Bass our Captain (youngest son)
Once inside of Carlsbad waters (where we live), I asked my youngest son (Our Captain) to find us some Dolphins.
(Mike had gone to the beach last year on his Birthday & had called me excited that he saw Dolphins playing in the waves)
.......so several miles from shore- I was moved to tears when we ran across at least 60-75 dolphins- in two huge schools dancing among the waves
We then floated 4 different colored Hibiscus (one for me, one for each of our 3 sons), along with many Plumeria Blossoms from our yard
Our Mike loved these flowers- his favorites. We watched in silence as they too danced across the waves & gently floated out to sea.
We then headed off to 65' depth & planted some fishing poles into the water. Or should I say my youngest son did
Within minutes, we caught a Halibut, a tiger shark and almost funny- a 75 LB Bass. This puppy was enormous & my youngest son tackled that beast for 20 minutes
(NOTE_ I have never been fishing, 2nd time on boat & had never driven boat) I manned the wheel & helped Brian chase that fiesty fish around the ocean, in & out of kelp beds. When we finally got him up to the edge of the water- we noticed his size & that he was a Black Sea Bass- endangered, rare & old. We cut him loose & as we let him go he splashed his sassy tale hard into the water as he spun back into the sea- totally soaking Brian & myself. We had a great Laugh about- Pop's spirit sassing by to say HI
On our way back to the docks, we threw our leftover bait into the waters, and even hand fed some friendly Pelicans
All in All, a Beautiful way to Celebrate the Day with my Dear Mike & our Sons.
A BIG HUG to all