Another passing... My dear sweet husband

[SMR]

Three years ago today my soulmate proposed to me, and soon after I became his wife. On October 28, 2011 he was diagnosed, and we rode this crazy cancer journey together for exactly two years and five months. Our relationship grew stronger, and deeper than we ever could have imagined. Over the last two and a half years he endured over 60 chemo tx, over 100 nights in the hospital, radiation, HIPEC and a total of 8 surgeries and a heart attack. I was lucky enough to spend every night in the hospital by his side (the docs made fun of us because we'd be asleep holding hands when they came for morning rounds!), attend every appointment and TX. He passed almost to the hour exactly 29 months from the moment I got his diagnosis. I was able to honor his wishes to pass at home. Today on the anniversary of our engagement, I will bury the love of my life. I miss him as fiercely as I love him. I try to take solace in the fact that he is no longer suffering, but it certainly has run through my mind that had there been a cure to this damn disease he would ALSO no longer be suffering. Anyhow today will be a rough day as I head to my husbands funeral, but I know full well that I have only just begun to dip my toe into the deep depths of despair that is to come.



Thank you Maia for teaching me to add a photo!

[cashmere]

I am so sorry for your devastating loss. May you get through today with the same grace you have shown throughout his life with you.

[ams5796]

A beautiful love story. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish you peace and love for the days ahead.


Ann

[janklo]

I am so sorry about the loss of your husband. Thanks so much for your participation here on this board, we've all learned from you and I know you've learned from us. One of my favorite Beatles lyrics is "in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make" and I know you and your husband definitely fit that. You are right, he is no longer suffering and he is at peace.

[Rheaeliza]

So sad to read your news this morning, but also so moved by the love you have for him. As a patient who has been through a lot I can say to you that your love and devotion made your husbands last few years so rich, and so much easier than it would have been. Good luck today and in the days that follow. My thoughts are with you.

[vickitwo]

I am sad to hear of the death of your dear husband Richard. I long for the day that the end of suffering from this dang disease is from a cure and not a premature death. May you be comforted by the many sweet memories of the time you had together. The loss of a spouse brings with it another roller coaster of emotions. For me, I find it to be more managable to take it one day at a time. Sending love your way.

[ziggymonster]

I am so very sorry to hear this news.....so young...too soon....praying for strength for you in the coming months.

[Colon Girl]

I wish I had something meaningful and profound to say that wasn't cliche or sound insincere, but when it comes to a loved one passing, there just are no words worthy enough. I am however, grateful that you had the opportunity to experience a relationship so grand and beyond what many others only long to have and that you will always have those memories. And I agree with you… there needs to be a cure for a disease that is touted as "preventable". You are in our thoughts and I am sending you big Blue Star hugs. Thanks for sharing your journey with us <3

[livingbyfaith]

Lost my hubby October 24th, just starting to feel again. God is carrying me as He will you until you can proceed again. I have found great help in an online support group for widows and widowers on Daily Strength. Two books have helped a lot Hello from Heaven and Reflections of a Grieving Spouse. God bless, so sorry about your loss. Janet

[Lee]

I am so sorry to read this and for your loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Lee

[Maia]

((Stacey))

I miss him as fiercely as I love him.

That touches my heart. May he rest in peace, may you feel peace and his love, always.

[some]

Stacey,

I am so sorry for your loss. It's always a great shock. I know you and your husband enjoyed your time together and are a great match. He is a handsome man with a kind face. We are here for you, but I hope you have someone who can be close to you when you need them.

Sincerely,

Serena

[mtlimpactfan]

My most sincere thoughts are with you.
Charles

[scattered edge]

so sorry for your loss. I hate this darned disease..

Rosie

[orcasres]

It sounds like you made a lifetime of memories in a very short period of time. I hope you can find peace in the coming days and months.

Lois