I wish I could tell you that it's not cancer. I wish I could tell you that if it's cancer, it will likely be early stage. But I'm not a doctor or a pathologist; and only those individuals can give you the answers you are waiting for.
My heart does go out to you. My diagnosis was a complete surprise, so I can't conceive the level of anxiety you must be feeling. I can offer best wishes, and prayers, if they are acceptable to you, and a few pieces of wisdom that may seem trite, but have turned out to be so very true for me over the years.
Worry and anxiety use energy and strength - things that are in short supply for lots of people with no extra issues, and are of major value to a cancer patient. Don't waste your energy and strength over something you can't change.
Today, and until you know for sure otherwise, you don't have cancer. Every minute that you spend worrying, you are giving that time to cancer prematurely. Cancer is a bitch, a mean fighter. Don't give up an inch, or a second that you don't have to.
Resist, if you can, the invitation to use Dr. Google. It won't make you feel any better; therefore, see trite sayings 1 and 2.
Live like you are dying. If you knew you would die tomorrow, today, would you sit around and worry, or would you do the things you love the most, and see the people who are dearest to your heart? None of us know our futures. As long as you are breathing, continue to live, love, and laugh.
We don't have all the answers here, but so many of us have been in your shoes. If you need us, we'll be here -- sometimes with answers, but always with support and encouragement.
Best wishes, strong thoughts, and prayers,
May 06 Stage IV CC: liver,ovarian mets
Oct 07 inoperable lung mets
Feb 08 - Apr'12 chemo
allergic to oxaliplatin, irinotecan
Aug '12-Feb'14 Genentech PD-L1/Avastin trial
Mar '14 -radiation to largest lung nodule
still recovering; looking at trials again