Without a doubt this journey is a rollocoaster of emotions with all kinds of dynamics only this board can understand. Watching my spouse battle this disease for 7 years....I feel like his luck can only go so far. Lately what has been bothering me is when he looses his battle - how to deal with his death??
I feel like I will be so lonely and depressed and yet I have to conjure up strength for our kids how does one prepare to be in such a scary position???
I just think i will be crying for the rest of my life? like if I see my sons eyes sad then that will crush me.I will never be able to escape the sadness that is to come.
I really feel I need to do something now to prepare.Then I also fear having guilt ,guilt of not doing enough,guilt for even thinking he could loose his battle.
I hate this disease so much!!Please share thoughts.