Postby sue.molenda » Sat Mar 01, 2014 11:31 am
That is so beautiful. I will not have a soul mate, a love, to cuddle me as I take my last breath. But my children of the (formerly) nice young man I met in church decades ago will no doubt be around me, and maybe a close friend or two. I hope to make it a beautiful, happy moment for them to remember and write about. That was a lovely gift from him to you. I cannot give that kind of gift to my ex nor do I want him around to make it an ugly, angry moment. You are blessed to have had such a lifelong, lasting love. I am sorry that life was so short, for him. I am a little morbid, waiting for test results, today. I have been reading about other stage four metastases. I had stage 3 B rectal cancer at diagnosis, stage four mets a year later, and now, two years later, I have worse pain and fatigue than before the initial diagnosis... and before that diagnosis, I already feared I was dying... and I guess I would have, had I not gotten insured in time. Cancer is an awful thing, but... death need not be. I hope to live many years longer. But today... on this Saturday of never-ending rain and gloom, I just want to be sad about my eventual demise, and tell you, as one who faces death without the kind of love you had, that you gave your husband a gift that he took to eternity with him. Your love, your kindness, and that peaceful passage into what I hope is a beautiful forever.