Postby Bev G » Sun Dec 08, 2013 9:31 pm
Tomorrow will be the 4th anniversary of my diagnosis of stage IV colon cancer. If feels like it has been forever, and realizing this causes me to consider, once again, the plight of my many friends with cancer who have been actively in the fight since diagnosis. For whatever inexplicable reason since recovery from my liver resection, which was albeit incredibly slow, and my "mop-up chemo over the following 6 months or so, I have had it incredibly easy, yet it still feels like it has been forever. I have been cancer-free since the liver resection which was done with "curative intent", and it seems that it might have worked.
I have made some astonishingly loving and wonderful friends, and have lost far too many of them. My heart has broken so many times I am quite sure it will never be the same, but then, it wouldn't be right if it was.
Four years ago I was given a 6% chance of surviving 5 years. My oncologist told me that the very best my odds would ever be would be 60-80% five year survival. Given that, I have a 20-40% chance of dying in the next 365 days. Well, whatever. All anyone can ever do is the best they can. That's what I intend to keep doing. I am looking forward to the day that any of this makes any sense at all.
Love and heartfelt prayers to you all,
Bev
58 yo Type1 DM 48 years
12/09 Stage IV 2/22 nodes + liver met, colon resec
3 tx FOLFIRI, liver resec 4/10
9/10 6 mos off chemo, Neg PET&CTC CEA nl
2/11 finished total 10 rounds chemo
9/13 ^17th clean PET/CT NED for now