Through much tears I wish to thank all of you for your support and advice since my loving and sweet husband started his journey a year ago. Yesterday he did pass away and is finally at peace and has no more pain. He declined quickly after his last chemo on 9/13 and never really recovered. We saw a quick progression on pain, weakness and confusion the last few days so his Onc did recommend hospice on Monday when I called him. They came in Monday night and started him on oxygen, and drops of Oxy and Ativan. He seemed to finally relax, breathe easier than he had in weeks and slept for the first time in days It was great to see him sleep, but after 15 hours, around 11am.Yesterday I asked if we drew back on the Ativan would he wake up so we could speak with him. They said they had not given him Ativan since 2am. We just spoke to him as he slept. At around 3 the nurse said his respiration was changing and he was most likely passing. My two sons and I spent that last almost hour just laying on the bed with him and giving him so much love, kisses and soft hugs until he peacefully passed. It was such a special time we can carry in our hearts forever. Much better that if he had passed in pain and anxiety as we saw increasing this weekend. One thing i am very glad about that i think made a world if difference was insisting to hospice we keep him here at home and in our own bed. They did want to move him to a facility and I knew his wishes were to never spend another night in a hospital. That made a very big difference and we will never regret it.
As I was messaging to Sharon (mojo) a little bit ago, you guys have been such an unbelievable support this year. I could not have gone through this year without you. Flyer things all settle down, I will be back to share with others as it helped so much for surviving loved ones like Sharon continue to give support and advice to those going through each new phase. I love you guys and my prayers are with you all continuously