Hard going back to the chair tomorrow...

[skypup]

I wish teher is naother better pain/nausea/fear free procedure for all of us..........
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Yes, jacekica, me, too...

My report: I had forgotten how undead chemo makes me feel. I can't believe I used to work while doing this. You people who do simply amaze me. I also am struck by how different it is knowing there is no cure in this poison. Always before there was at least a small chance. Again, you who have worn this burden for a while amaze me!

The fasting was, I think, a good thing. I only tossed my cookies once, didn't quite get the zofran down in time, and it was easier since there were no cookies.

I hope everyone else has had a not horrible chemo week.

Hugs to all!

[Guinevere]

I'm so glad for that you've found a regimen that helps you tolerate the chemo better! That's so very important and I'll see if I can do that if I have go back on infused chemo. That Sharfenberger chocolate mousse sounds awesome! Enjoy!
God bless ~
Guinevere

[jeanette57]

yes - but I pack for it! I have my beautiful African bag (from tribe) and fill it with warm head stuff, kindle, goodies to treat myself, scented things when that nasty saline taste kills my mouth. I have fruit drinks and of course my wheelchair is filled with oxygen bottle and purse, papers, and the biggest smile I can at each nurse. I know them all! They have gotten to know I like to be touched, they laugh when I stick all the chemo stuff under my shirt or get hot bags to make sure NO cold fluids go into my body (cause heart issues). They are a bit afraid of my 89 yr old mom...so they tell me if they are going to hurt me (last Wednesday forgot port cream--ouchie).

Find one person you enjoy - ask them for a chemo date - visit with them, tell them you enjoy it - tell them everything they see is helping you even if it looks bad! I visit - all the time. I bring pictures of vacation, I cry when sick, but they just hold me. I have only cried once (when I found out I had bone mets)
So pack some fun- walk in Happy to have chance" again!

[Traveler001]

Feel good Skypup! Don't focus on the yucky.

[skypup]

Feel good Skypup! Don't focus on the yucky.

You, too, my fellow traveler!

[elise]

Remember how much love and grace you show us. (((Hugs)))

Elise

[janderson]

I feel your pain. I have been in the fight for 8 years now. I have had 2 recurrences after being NED and going back to the chemo chair is probobly the hardest thing I have ever had to motivate myself to do. It is worse than the first time after diagnosis. I think it is worse when you know first hand what the experience is like compared to the first time when you are only going by what you read. It is truly an indescribable feeling to others who havent been on chemo before. I cried the day after my port was put back in last time.

Go ahead and whine. We ALL deserve to whine. We have plenty to whine about but so many times we are restricted from whining because we don't want to alarm our loved ones around us so we suck it up.

[nitebreez]

I've gotten to where I actually WANT to go to "the chair". That's because I'm 6 treatments down,...and 6 more to go. Want to get it all done. But I still have those scary feelings about what new side effects I'm going to face when the treatment is over. I have to ride the bus home,..(and then walk about a mile when I don't make the transfer)....and sometimes it aien't easy. Unfortunately,....I'm facing my 2nd chemo break because of extremely low cell counts (it's down to only 26 this time). I go see the ONC tomorrow,....and know what she'll say. "Cheeeeeemoooooo break!!!!"
Actually wish I was going for the chair. (I have a love-hate relationship with the chair).

[nitebreez]

I've gotten to where I actually WANT to go to "the chair". That's because I'm 6 treatments down,...and 6 more to go. Want to get it all done. But I still have those scary feelings about what new side effects I'm going to face when the treatment is over. I have to ride the bus home,..(and then walk about a mile when I don't make the transfer)....and sometimes it aien't easy. Unfortunately,....I'm facing my 2nd chemo break because of extremely low cell counts (it's down to only 26 this time). I go see the ONC tomorrow,....and know what she'll say. "Cheeeeeemoooooo break!!!!"
Actually wish I was going for the chair. (I have a love-hate relationship with the chair).

PS: I'm pretty new to these forums,......and have I mentioned lately just how much all of you are such a help and inspiration to me??? Well,..I'm mentioning it now. LOL! I should have hit the "edit" instead of the "quote",...(shows how much I know).

[jeanette57]

OH MY GOD

"""Go ahead and whine. We ALL deserve to whine. We have plenty to whine about but so many times we are restricted from whining because we don't want to alarm our loved ones around us so we suck it up."""

YOU HAVE IT SO RIGHT! I just got back from lunch with a crying friend. I asked her to do my bucket list party at the day of the dead parade. She knew I was stage 4 but didn't understand, I don't know if I have next year, and said so. Yicks soooo hard to suck it up ....she didn't understand even her mother died of ovarian cancer after 12 years of chemo starting at 82 yrs old to 94 yrs old. I sucked it up, made out how wonderful life has been to me and couldn't eat a bite of my 15 dollar meals because she was still crying (had to leave early). major suck up - being the cheerful clown left her smiling...me sick at heart! Dogs love the meal!