My dad is now my beautiful angel

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My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby mlibertone » Mon Sep 23, 2013 3:18 pm

On Monday September 16th my dad passed away peacefully at home surrounded by me, my mom, my twin sister, my brother, his wife and his little dog, Nellie. I can only describe his passing as beautiful and amazing. My mom was at work. My brother had just left the house to go to work. My twin and I were in his room with him because we had someone with him 24/7. I was holding his hand and noticed that it was starting to get cold so I told my sister to call my brother and get him to come back and I called my mom. My son came home from school and I got him up to give his grandpa, the person who has basically been his father all his life (he is 14), one last kiss. When I brought him and my nephew back downstairs, my 3yr old daughter said she wanted to go see grandpa. (Both of my children have lived with my dad since birth) When she went up, she climbed into his bed, hugged and kissed him. She hopped down, turned back and said, I love you grandpa. He took one more short breath and passed. It was so peaceful that all of us in the room were in disbelief that, that was it.

I have not been on this site in such a long time bc I have been dad's main care giver. He was on hospice for 5 months and went chemo free for almost nine. He fought so hard.
Here is his obituary
http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/wellsv ... bLoggedOut

After about an hour of spending time with dad after his passing, I was sitting at the table with my family. I had gotten out my laptop to find a picture of dad for the write up in the paper. I rarely ever use my laptop bc I have an ipad. Anyway, I went to burn the pics to a cd and when I opened the cd rom, there was another cd in there. It was unlabeled. I set it aside and burned the pics. Then I got curious so I put the other cd back in. On the screen popped a thing that said track1 and when I pressed play, it was my dad singing a beautiful song. To me, that was his sign to me that he had made it to the other side and that he was ok.
here is the song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6SBYz24p78I

Words can not describe how I feel. All I know is that the world will never be the same with out him. My life will never be the same. I have lost my best friend. The person who knew me and understood me bc he was just like me. I am going to miss him for the rest of my life but, I know some day we will be together again.

Here is a slideshow I made in memory of my dad, my best friend, my angel.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2hKfCpQrGY

One more thing I would like to say is that I am so thankful to be a member of this club. You all have helped me to be able to help my dad through all that he went through. I learned so much here and I hope to be able to pass on the knowledge and help others in return.

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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby janklo » Mon Sep 23, 2013 3:33 pm

I am so sorry to hear this news. But I think you are right, that was a message from your dad, singing that beautiful song. He'd already made it to heaven!

I read the obituary - your dad was a busy man with a lot of interests. He definitely had a well-lived life. I notice he worked at a monument company, did he by chance design a marker for himself? If he did, that would be pretty neat!
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Postby weisssoccermom » Mon Sep 23, 2013 4:03 pm

What an absolutely awesome voice your dad had! I'm speechless at the youtube video.

That is so cool that you had that CD.....too many people don't have anything that has their loved ones voice on it and as time goes on, it becomes more and more difficult to 'hear' that special voice. You are very lucky.
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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby hopeful » Mon Sep 23, 2013 4:23 pm

I am so sorry but glad that the end was so peaceful. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
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Postby annalexandria » Mon Sep 23, 2013 4:30 pm

I am so, so sorry. It was very clear from your posts here how close you were to your dad, and what a great daughter you were to him. I'm sure he felt very lucky to have you. And I'm glad you were able to be there at the end with him. It sounds calm and peaceful, and full of love, which is what we would all like to have when our times comes.
Many hugs to you and your family~AA
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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby CRguy » Mon Sep 23, 2013 5:25 pm

My deepest sympathies to you and your family over your Dad's passing.
Prayers and courage for the days ahead, and beautiful memories forever.

In Harmony
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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby Val*pal » Mon Sep 23, 2013 5:30 pm

My condolences. You are so fortunate to have had such a wonderful father. Nothing can take that away from you.
DH dx'ed May '11, age 62
Jul '11: resection Stage IV
10/11: 6 mo Folfox
8/12:thyr canc, surg/tx
2/13: peri mets
2/13: Firi/Avas
6/13: Ok
8/13: break
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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby mstults » Mon Sep 23, 2013 5:39 pm

Such a sweet story. You have my condolences. Praying that the days get easier.
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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby GreenMonkey » Mon Sep 23, 2013 5:47 pm

what a beautiful testimony to your dad. I lost my dad shortly after my breast cancer diagnosis in 2012 (and now, rectal cancer). I believe he passed to help me live. Even so, he fought his death. His last breaths were intense and pained. Either way, it is an honor to witness.

Dad's and daughter stories always move me. No man can ever top my dad. This is a story that I found very moving.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article ... ds-newsxml

Thank you for sharing your father with us. What a wonderful man - your family is truly blessed.

Love and Light to you and all who loved your father, Shannon (aka Green Monkey)
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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby abuttigi » Mon Sep 23, 2013 6:21 pm

I am so, so sorry. I wish there was something more I could say that could make you feel better. I wish you weren't going through the pain I know all too well. Consider this the biggest hug from me ((((hug))))

The story of you finding your dad's voice on that cd is precious. Right after my dad died, I sent a text to my friend. She replied with, "that's a nice pic of your dad." Come to find out a picture of my dad giving a thumbs up came on her screen after I sent her a message. It must have been the last picture I sent her, but when she sent me it I knew my dad was ok. I hope the CD gave you the same comfort.

Please come back as you need for support. My email is abuttigi@gmail.com... please use it as you need!

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Angie
Daughter to George (64)
Dx'ed Jan '11 Stage IV CC liver and peritoneum, KRAS mutant
Folfox
Folfori, Avastin
SIRT
Aug '12- progression in liver, mets to lungs
Oct '12- mets to bone, Regorafenib
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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby justin case » Mon Sep 23, 2013 6:22 pm

Many people don't get a chance to know how their Dad cared for them. Many men are somewhat inward in their thoughts. I hope you are able to cherish all your times together!
Warm regards,
Michael
7/11 diagnosed Stage 2 colon and rectal cancer
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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby rosa01 » Mon Sep 23, 2013 8:36 pm

Sorry for the loss of such a wonderful father. His memory's will be forever in your heart so when you miss him just touch your heart he is right there.

God Bless

Dear God,

Please take care of this family through such a terribly hard time. Place your hand on them and give them peace. Take loving care of their father until they are all with him again. Amen

Sheila
DX 12/11 DH Stg 4 cc age 60
12/20/1 1 lungs mets
2/1/12 started chemo oxe/ava/5-fu
3/12 liver mete fnd
5/12 new chemo irt/Eberix
8/12 lung surg
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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby mymom » Mon Sep 23, 2013 8:43 pm

My prayers are with you.
Stage 4 CC DX 5/11
colon/livr rsct 5/11(1 met)
Folfox July-11/11
NED to 5/12
New Primry BC-4/12,Stage 1
2 livermet 5/2012
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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby concernedrelative » Tue Sep 24, 2013 9:02 am

Thank you for sharing such a beautiful and intimate moment with us. It helps those caregivers who are headed down the same path in the not too distant future. My warmest wishes for your ongoing peace and happiness as you reminisce about an obviously incredible man.

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Re: My dad is now my beautiful angel

Postby Maia » Tue Sep 24, 2013 10:11 am

May he rest in peace.
You are so fortunate to have had such a wonderful friend in your life. Nothing, nobody can take that, all what you have shared during years, away from you. : ) Real love is for ever.


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