I'm right behind you this week on Wednesday the 14th. I'm looking forward to finding out exactly what is going on inside my body right now, so we can reevaluate my plan going forward. CEA is rising, ascites and pleurisy are getting more troublesome, and I have new back pain, and increased pain in the area I have always had it. I won't be surprised if I have more node mets, or growth in the ones that I had, and more bone spread. I really do not get scanxiety. Sure, I'm a bit anxious to find out the results so I can move forward, but no true anxiety or worry. It will be what it will be. I know I'm living on borrowed time at this point - every day is a bonus and I hope to squeeze out many more. But I know I am getting closer to the end - much closer than just 8 months ago when I was doing pretty well overall. I am deteriorating... I'm probably going to be looking at draining off my lung again, and maybe my abdomen, and some treatment to bones again. Not sure what will happen with chemo - if I'll try sticking to the 2 week schedule for a while and see if things improve, or if my onc thinks I should switch to Stivarga or a clinical trial. I see him next Friday and will hopefully have answers and a plan after that.
I'm going on a riverboat Happy Hour Cruise (pizza and salad buffet for my two eating machines) with my husband and both sons after my scan Wednesday, to celebrate both of their birthdays. The older one turns 21 on Tuesday, and leaves for Europe next Monday. The younger one will have his 19th birthday during his AIT (Army Chemical Specialist Training) at Fort Leonardwood in October. He leaves the following Thursday. So I'm actually looking forward to Wednesday!
I hope this is a good month for scans for everyone, with no big surprises unless they are NED suprises! Get out there and make plans and live large - no dwelling on scan results that you can't change by worrying. Don't let the cancer and the scans have any power over you. YOU are in control! Enjoy life!