Thanks guys HOWEVER you inspire me! I am still alone in my house, caregiver who I started to appreciate and give hugs betrayed me. So I move on day by day. I have been given such a gift from my spirit (I call her/him god) No pain 98 percent of the time.
In my bucket list I went to the ocean - now my friend offered me a very expensive but free to me package to spa resort for 2 days. then another friend just got me 2 nights at a casino (4 star). Yicks gifts from people I have helped in the past.
Tomorrow I am starting my " I am dead, but this last letter mailed 6 weeks after death) will give love and light to all the memories. It is crazy going through old photos and spending 100 plus bucks to ship many of these back to my xmas (list) friends. I noticed a lot lately how so many people are there the first few weeks then it all quiet n- that was when you need the most comfort. Odd to me but what I see in my life.
I am still pissed my family does not want my little cottage all 700 sq feet - free and clear. I am getting a mini split next week, so they can bitch about the swamp cooler. Oh I am leaving to mom in case she needs a caregiver to help her. She lives on the next street and I have a sidewalk to her back door.
I am wired today from t he chemo and steroids and will try to lay down but brain is on search mode. I learning mini split mode and seer ratings. Oh joy.
thanks to all of you - many of you will never know how your support - whining
and love has helped in the times I want to go but didn't. you all are my inspiration