I love that I can post this and no one is grossed out or makes me feel uncomfortable unlike in the real world
My problem is that I can go months without an incident so I am not ready to wear depends 24/7yet
I have tried food journals and it appears my colon just goes crazy sometimes….we think it’s a combination of the shortened colon from the resection and the slight (well the colon doc says the muscle feels strong from his side but my lack of underwear seems to disagree with him) loss of muscle control causes the occasional accidents.
I do wear them when I feel I may have a problem..after scan, colonoscopies, during my period, when my stomach does not feel just right, thought other than the cat scan when I needed extra depends I have never had an accident wearing them.
My colon doc has suggested I try to firm up my bowel movements with Metamucil, I haven’t tried that hard, I plan to start again….need to figure out the right amount taken at the right time….so much work
When it happens I just feel disgusted with myself and the side effects of the cancer, embarrassed and dirty (kind of like when my dog has an accident on the rug…..got to have more sympathy for him)
There is no place to keep anything in our bathroom at work. We are moving in the fall and I think I should ask for a desk near the bathroom.
Thanks for listening and making me feel less gross