Yellowbird, will you check in?

[skypup]

Hi Laura,

You are on my mind and in my prayers, and I'm sure that is true for many. Will you check in and let us know how you are doing?

Much love,
Theresa

[WorriedWife]

Yes, in my prayers also. Please let us know how you are doing.

[Deirdre]

Yes thinking of you x

[consdrs]

Me too!!! Prayers to you!!

Connie

[Bev G]

A few months ago I got in some hot water for communicating something from Facebook. I think, however, that I'm fine in saying that Yellowbird is posting regularly, and appears to be having fun and doing well. I have chatted with her. She is an amazing woman, that's for sure!

[Yellowbird]

Hi All,

Wow...I feel so loved

The past two weeks have been really blurred. Hospice people came out every day for the first week. Then I just saw a nurse and social worker this week.

I'm keeping my spirits up, staying close to home, sleeping a lot, taking a lot of hydrocodone.

My CT scan results of my chest finally came in ... as I suspected, widespread nodules in my lungs. The nurse called me with the results Tuesday morning and said the onc said I could either do chemo or not....(?) I asked, what is his recommendation, and of course they want me to come in to talk to him, which wouldn't be a problem if he weren't an hour and a half away. I guess I am not satisfied with the answer that I can do "This or that"...I just want to be told how it is, what would be better for me, keeping in mind I would rather not take chemo til I die. That being said, I'll probably just keep on hospice and enjoying my time.

I had a heinous allergic reaction to a drug Sunday night and it kept me feeling awful til today, when I finally feel a bit more human.

I'm not ready to die!!! My 18 year old daughter still has not dealt with this and she graduates high school in June...my niece gets married in St. Kitts in June also. Would love to be blessed with those events...but at my stage, four months away is a very long time.

My shortness of breath is getting worse as you would imagine. The oxygen helps a bit I think.

The sun was out today, I had two visitors, I watched Austin Powers and laughed and played with my dog....those simple pleasures are so valuable to me right now!!!

I try not to think about how the outcome might have been different, had I been on chemo all last year....would my mets be less? Would the chemo have weakened me to the point where I succumed quicker? Only God knows these answers. But, I would not have been able to go to LA, Michigan, Georgia, Florida, and the Bahamas; and danced the night away to disco tunes like I did when I was 21.

I'm living, I'm breathing, and God willing, I'll still be doing that for a while to come....

<3

[tammylayne]

Great to hear from you!!! Sounds like you have been having some highs...wonderful for you. May you have many many more.

Take care and be kind to yourself...

[skypup]

I try not to think about how the outcome might have been different, had I been on chemo all last year....would my mets be less? Would the chemo have weakened me to the point where I succumed quicker? Only God knows these answers. But, I would not have been able to go to LA, Michigan, Georgia, Florida, and the Bahamas; and danced the night away to disco tunes like I did when I was 21.
<3

Hi Laura!
It was so good to wake up to your post--it is going to take something huge to make my day any better than it is right now!

Vent: I can't believe your oncologist isn't available to you for a phone consult right now. Just being told you can or not... that's unacceptable. I guess the lesson for the newbies is to go to the trouble at the beginning to get a doc one can work with, and who will do some extra work with you when needed. I'll be in Dallas Monday morning and can take the afternoon to get you to your doc. I'd be glad to! Just let me know if you want. I'm a really safe driver.

Joy: I love your spirit! I can hear the way you are able to really live. That will be a model for your kids all their lives, even if the 18 y.o. doesn't realize it yet. And wondering the "what if's" about the last year vs. chemo? I so get it. I'm glad you don't go far down that path -- look what you did with your time! Now, if you'd stayed home and cleaned house....

Gentle hugs to you! I vote for you getting to your June events, LOL, will talk to the guy upstairs about it.

Theresa

[DaniMags]

It seems though Laura is having a tough time and is asking for prayers for strength. Her family is with her.

I just wanted to pass it along to her friends here. She could use all your prayers.

Dani

[Hapa]

Praying for Laura & her family....

Dh stage 3 rc

[vickitwo]

Yellowbird, my thoughts and prayers are with you. Glad to hear that you are enjoying life's simple pleasures,