Postby Yellowbird » Fri Feb 01, 2013 11:30 pm
I made the decision Monday to go on hospice. The ct of my head didn't show any "ABBY NORMAL' stuff but the CT of my chest has been delayed for some reason. The nurse who has been following my journey all along, who knows me well, suggested it was time, after seeing the CT of my abdomen and pelvis.
I am incredibly short of breath...have developed a serious strange cough...and I'm oh so tired.
My faith in God is leading me to really turn my life over to Him and place my life, literally, in His hands. You can call me a fool if you'd like. Its common knowledge that any further chemo will not cure me and no one has told me if it will extend my life for even a day.
But for me, chemo steals my joy, my peace, and changes me into a person I do not like. If my days/weeks/months here are few, than I want that time to be at peace.
Blessings to all my CC warriors in their continued fight.
Dx stage III July '10
Colon resection August '10
8 rounds Folfox
dx stage IV peritoneal carcinoma May 11
HIPEC Aug 11
Mop up folfiri with avastin
July 12, liver mets multiple metastases