Thank you everyone for responding and all the positive thoughts. I am going for my CT in a half hour, then next I hope to meet with the surgeon. The problem I may run into with recovery is that I work a very physical job, I work for Trader Joe's and I work the stocking shifts. I unload trucks, break down pallets, lift, twist, run around and all before 8 am. Not to mention standing all day! I know everything will work out it's just this limbo of not knowing that it driving me nuts. I have no patience to be a patient!!!! haha. My family is here in town which makes it much better. I also have discovered that my bf of not even a year is more amazing than I thought and apparently loves me since he dealt with my prep, scope and plans to take care of me after. He trys to keep me level headed and not on a downward spiral of all the things I need to worry about. He just calmed me down when I started talking about my finances and how I am going to even make it through not working while acquiring bills. I will have short term disability but its only 2/3 pay and starts two weeks after you leave. I have health insurance but they never pay everything. It's all the little things that seem to pile up in my head over the day. I also had to speak to my manager today and tell her what is going on, so that was a little distressing. Talking about it is still hard because when you say CANCER people get weird and start treating you weird not to mention I can't seem to wrap my own head around it. All I know is I am going to this appt, then the next, then whatever else I need to do. Thank you all for welcoming me and I will give you guys an update as soon as I know anything!
8/24/12 surgery laproscopic 12"
ovarian cyst drained,Scar tissue removed
8/28/12 stage 1; pT1 pN0 pM0
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