A year.....

[elissa]

Today is a year that I lost my best friend. Today is a year that life as I knew it ceased to be. It has been a long and trying road. I have worked very hard to take care of my boys and myself, and to move forward in this life without John. By February/March, I was really feeling like it was all possible. Then I got knocked down this month. It has actually been more difficult re-living his last two weeks than it was the first time around. But I am strong and I will pull myself up again.
I have been a constant lurker on this site. I have been so saddened by all of the losses and all of the struggles. I think about many of you regularly. I appreciate how caring and thoughtful so many of you were in my time of need. It is something I will always remember.
A special "Thank you" to Kathy in NJ/Seriously WTF for reaching out to me this past week. It really meant a lot to me.
I wish each and every one of you well on your journey.
Elissa

[NedPlease]

It's with a heavy heart that I read your post. I wish for you the strength to carry on and for healing to ease the pain of losing your precious husband. Thank you for your thoughtful well wishes- Blessings

[Seriously, WTF?]

xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

[adina91]

Elissa - I can't believe it has been a year. I think of you often and wonder how you are doing. I love it when you pop online. I hope the past year has brought you and your family peace.

[jrw118]

Elissa,
I think of you often and how you were the first to reach out to me when I was first diagnosed. May my prayers bring you peace and strength to get through this tough time. I hope your boys are doing well
Xoxo
Jess

[tmn]

Thinking of you and your family at this time.

[barbara jayne]

So nice to "see" you again Elissa,
I can't believe a whole year has gone by either, I've often wondered how you are doing.
I wish you and your boys well especially now when all the reminders must hurt so much.
Take care,
Barbara x

[so-scared]

In a couple of weeks it will be one year since my husband's stage four diagnosis. I know the challenges we have faced over the last year.... I can not even begin to imagine the challenges that you have faced over the same year!!

I noticed your story right away when I joined this forum and have always felt so bad that things went so quickly in your husband's case. I am so sorry that all of this has happened. I really don't know what to say except that my heart truly goes out to you!

So-s

[seva]

prayers for your family, you are a special woman.

[waw4]

Wow. A year already? How quickly it all passes by.

You and I joined the forum within a week of each other in 2010, so I sort of feel like we're like classmates although you've had the harder road to travel.

Sounds like a tough year for you and a naturally hard time at the anniversary of parting with John.

I hope things ease up for you a bit soon and wish you and your boys the very best! Nice to hear from you.

[michelle c]

Elissa,

John would be very proud of you, I'm sure.
Love to you and your boys.

Michelle xox

[Bev G]

Dear Elissa,

I think of you so often, always with very tender feelings and a lot of admiration for your strength and courage. I can't imagine how tough things are at this time of year--recalling and re-living that horrible time in your lives. I hope the knowledge that John is at perfect peace brings you some degree of peace as well, although I know that knowledge does little to ease the real, true burden of day to day life without him. I know he would/is so proud of you, and all you've done, I know finding strength you never even knew you had.

I'll be glad for you when this sad season has passed.

Love,

Bev

[Lisa]

Elissa:

I am so sorry that you have to go through the painful anniversary of his death. The first year without them is pretty awful isn't it. I wish there was something I could say to take away the pain.

Although we would give anything to never have been on the cancer journey, I am so grateful that there us a place like this where Tim found so much support during his life and where I received support upon his death. I am grateful to have "met" you and so many others here. You were so kind to reach out to me when Tim was declining, giving me someone to talk to who knew what I was going through. You did not have to do that when your own loss was so fresh. I now I understand how difficult that must have been.

Sending you lots of hugs at the end of this difficult year. If you need to talk, I am there.

Lisa

[Deirdre]

Hi Elissa

I have thought of you often. I hope the boys are doing ok. You have been so string for them. I hope the road ahead is easier for you. Thinking of you