Hmmmmm, i dont precisely feel survivors guilt bu i feel guilty as a stage 2 (rectal cancer) for how hard i found the whole thing.
I guess an ultra low anterior resection is about as complicated as surgery gets, but i didnt have an truly awful side effects if radiation or chemo, had a pretty good ileostomy experience, a successful reversal, yet Im traumatised by the treatment, still think about cancer every singke day nd after a bout of diarrhoea today i just feel so angry and frustrated by wanting to be normal in that regard. Yet difficult as the reversal as been, its not a patch on how sick crohn or UC sufferers often are, nowhere near as some reversals can be.
I feel like as a stage 2, i didnt hav "real" cancer and i have no right to feel sad and angry about what happened to me. Which is stupid, cancer is cancer, and is life changing no matter what.