Postby Bev G » Sat Jan 07, 2012 8:36 am
Hi all:
Thanks again for all the support, prayers and hugs. Please keep them up. I am cutting and pasting the following from the "wives" thread so I don't have to gather energy to re-type it:
... thank you so much for your kind welcomes. Today has been almost horrible beyond words and I am so exhausted and not thinking straight. I had to take my husband to the ER this morning (he was discharged from the hospital on Wednesday after the excision of the cancerous node) because he was much sicker--vomiting and a little short of breath. The pathology came back from the node, but more testing is still needed. The first set of news is it is "diffuse large cell lymphoma" (DLCL), very, very rapidly progressive. They admitted him and started chemo TONIGHT (they had planned to start it by next Friday) because everything is progressing so fast that his liver could not have tolerated the chemo if they had waited to give it to him (ie he might not have lasted over the weekend). They are giving him four chemo drugs, slowly and low-dose over the next FOUR days as an in-patient, and monitoring about a million things as they do so. One of the chemos is heart-toxic and they did not have time to do the test on his heart as they wanted to before starting the chemo, feeling he couldn't last until Monday, when they could do this specialized test to start chemo. They also could not wait to put a port in, so he will be getting this first round through a PICC line
All of the terminology is SO different than CRC, all the chemo side effects are different, EVERYTHING is different, and I feel so overwhelmed. I can't understand all the info, and some truly horrifying things can happen as a result of the "killing off" quickly of this tumor load (ie the treatment could kill him). I am breathless with terror, and this is all so fast---diagnosis just 4 days ago. I don't think I am doing well at all, but I'm doing the best I can. I have been having problems with him, definitely, but this is the man who I loved and have been with for 30 years, and I am grief-stricken by what he is going through, and by what I may soon be going through.
Thank you all for your support.
Love,
Bev
58 yo Type1 DM 48 years
12/09 Stage IV 2/22 nodes + liver met, colon resec
3 tx FOLFIRI, liver resec 4/10
9/10 6 mos off chemo, Neg PET&CTC CEA nl
2/11 finished total 10 rounds chemo
9/13 ^17th clean PET/CT NED for now