Don't discount my deep faith in God by implying that if it turns out I have a brain met that it's because I didn't have enough faith
Oh, I SO hear you on this! I try very hard to appreciate the sentiment that they're trying to make me feel better, but it's hard not to snap at people when they spout trite crap like that. I detest the implication that if you pray hard enough, believe hard enough, think positively enough, fight hard enough, believe that God will heal you deeply enough...etc. that you can 'beat this'. I even had someone tell me recently that "You'll be fine, and you'll look back on this in a few years and think 'that wasn't so bad'." *(#$&#I*!
The only person that ever made a lick of sense was the nurse who, when I asked her if attitude really made any difference, said that people with a positive attitude tend to take better care of themselves, and thus have better outcomes. That I could understand. But I would wager that most people don't think it through that far. Me smiling and staying positive makes THEM feel better, and makes me easier to be around, and makes it easier for them to deal with the idea. And sometimes, it makes me feel better, too. But sometimes, I need a moment to let reality sink in, and to fall apart a little bit and it's more helpful to have someone acknowledge that I have good reason for the fears and anxiety I'm feeling than to deny the whole thing and tell me not to think about it. Hello, people, this is cancer we're dealing with, not an infected toenail.
I'm sorry you're having to deal with all of this, the stress, the worry, the pain, and everything else. It sucks, and there's nothing to do but put one foot in front of the other and do the next thing. And come here to vent occasionally.
I'm praying for you, Jess, for strength, for your family, and for a positive outcome.
<hugs>
Cj