I'm going to answer this again since I'm now nine months post reversal and things have settled into some kind of new normal for me. It might be interesting to compare!
For some, Were you given the opportunity to avoid temp ileostomy altogether.? As I said before, no, that was never a possibility.
For others, Post ileostomy reversal how did your bowel movement change?over time my digestion has become chronically sluggish and inefficient.
For all, Did you suffer any form of incontinence?Not at first. No urgency, no accidents. What I do have is soft bowel motions that are sometimes nearly freaking impossible to clean up, I wipe and wipe and wipe and wipe and it keeps coming. And I can be a little leaky sometimes, there's been a few skid marks, unpleasant surprises when I've scratched my bum
because it was itchy and I'd go for a wee and end up wiping for ages. This was driving me nuts but has improved a lot since I stopped taking iron. Everything has improved since I stopped taking iron. Its maybe only happened twice in the last three months.
How do you cope with urgency?dont have it, ever. What I do have is some days of constant false urges to go - they're not urgent but I might visit the toilet ten to fifteen times, with no joy.
How do you cope with stomach/ bowel pain?I have a problem with constipation more than anything, probably partly to do with having a lapband and not putting as much food in my system as most folk do. I have a lot of days, probably five out of seven where I feel bloated, heavy, a lot of urges to go with nothing there, bouts of gas, and just generally feeling like my digestive system is sluggish and feeling mildly unwell as a result. It doesnt stop me doign a single thing, but it does take the joy out of lots of stuff. Every time I go to the gym, I'm usually in a state of mild anxiety as to whether the urge will suddenly consolidate and I'll ahve to leave a class. I still think about my bowels all the time and I hate that.
I dont have any rectal pain, any pain with bm's (other than having to strain). My bowel motions are not hard or dry, it just doesnt seem to form itself into a decent load that I can eliminate easily and I dont seem to have the ability to push.
I really try not to, really try, because I know laxative use is dangerous, but sometimes I take a dose of Lactulose because I cant stand it, I just want a good clean out and to have a bowel motion that actually feels satisfying. I just cant stand feeling always full but umable to empty.
Have you seen an improvement over time?If you call this an improvement over the constant uncomfortable stinky gas I had as a reaction to daring to eat a normal meal and a little more diarrhoea, maybe. I cant say I"m all that thrilled with my new "normal" and since I've had little luck with dietary measures or fibre supplements, not really sure what to do about it next.
Since I last wrote on this thread, I have perhaps learned what I can ignore and what I cant. and cut down on the bathroom visits a bit.
Do any of you wish you had had a permanenet colostomy such has you life changed you feel chained to the loo?I'm not chained to the loo, I'm just not feeling sprightly like you do whem your guts work right. I have reached the point where I wouldnt opt for an ostomy over this though Its only looking back now that I can see how sick, underweight and chronically unwell I was with the ileostomy/chemo combination,despite the fact that I coped well with teh bag. I couldnt have gone on like that and fully realise now why my surgeon and onc were so alarmed at my appearance and why my surgeon wasnt willing to consider not reversing. Obviously a colostomy is a different proposition again, but I didnt have one so dont really know.
Is the LAR or any post adjuvant chemo that causes these changes or both?Who knows? I thought it was the radiation as all my "symptoms" were a lot more intense five months ago, now I just think my entire system is pretty stuffed from the chemo.
Is your new "normal" manageable?Yes, for the most part. Sometimes I just avoid going out or doing something. I know a positive attitude is everything, and my surgeon thinks I should be darn grateful to have beaten cancer (who can ever say that really?) and to be continent. However, much as I like to be positive what I see is that I got stuck with this darn disease and now as a result I have to live with a really unpleasant bowel condition forever. I'm not grateful that its worked out like it has, I'm freaking pissed off that it happened at all. I'm not happy and I dont want to be this way and I'm not going to pretend otherwise. I dont see it as any better than having an ostomy to be honest, but if I cant be all greateful and smiling and consumed with the fact that I cheated cancer this once, I
CAN accept it, get on with life and not let it limit me. Its not on the same scale as losing a limb or a breast because I can keep it private. And truly, it is a great result that enables me to suck it up and get on with living the best way I can.